crazyguy1 Posted March 26, 2012 Posted March 26, 2012 Hey guys, I came here to share my story and ask for some advice. It is rather long winded so if you read it all I really do appreciate it. In December 2010 i broke up with my then girlfriend and started going out with a girl that liked me and I liked her. She was so much different from my ex and I realized that I was in an emotionally and verbally abusive relationship before. This girl means everything to me and shortly I fell in love with her and she fell in love with me. Now to give some context at the time we were dating I was a high school senior and she was a sophomore. I got accepted into a few good colleges, but I wanted to stay closer for home mainly because of her. She told me to pick the college I wanted to be at the most not the one that would be closest to her. However, I decided to stay mainly so I could be with her as it was still a decent college and I would rather be happy and with her. Fast forward a few months. Her dad got a job offer that will take the family over 500 miles away. He decided to accept it in the summer and then I had to contend with my girlfriend moving away in a few months. It was hard. I mean really hard and my heart broke. I mean I had decided to stay to be with her and now she's moving?? It broke my heart. So she left this past december. Since then I've flown out to see her twice for a total of about 14 days. That being said it feels rather one sided. She's graduating a year early and doesn't have a job. As such I'm the one paying for the ticket although her parents have offered to help some it's not nearly enough for me to keep flying and maintain anywhere close to a healthy bank account. Now she will graduate next year and she's been talking about colleges. Right now she is talking about staying where she is for college and that would mean that the soonest I could be with her again all the time would be in three years. She has mentioned about going to a college only a few hours away from me, but she's not terribly interested in it. My question is what should I do? I feel depressed most days and I miss her terribly and I love her more than anything. I don't want to force her to go to the college close to me but relationship wise it would help tremendously. I can't move out to the college near her for fiscal reasons, but her parents make plenty of money enough so they can send her to wherever she gets accepted. I just want to know what to ask and tell her. I know if I bring it up she'll get upset naturally, I just don't want her to think I'm trying to break up with her. I just want to go out with her and be happy and right now it's so hard to even think straight. I'm a 19 year old guy and I'm ashamed to admit that a lot of nights I cry myself to sleep because it hurts so bad. I can't break up with her as she's a part of me even if she is far away and I love her? What should I do?
Recommended Posts