starships Posted March 20, 2012 Posted March 20, 2012 Hi everyone, so here's my story in the shortest paragraph I can do it. So I was seeing a guy for about 10 months. We met online, and because he fell for me I decided to meet him. Few weeks down the line, I started developing strong feelings for him. However, our relationship had minor bumps in the beginning. We have a 7/8 age gap, and we live far from one another (2 hours on the train). I'm at University and he works. Things were wonderful in the beginning (I guess you can call it the honeymoon phase) but after a while, I started becoming very insecure. He's my first, whereas he's had his first, he's been through a bad heart-break when he was around my age, and he's way more experienced than me. This caused me to have trust issues with him, which led me to going through his phone (which he wasn't happy about), and telling petty lies, which now I realise was a mistake. I guess we're at different stages of life. Starting from about january we started bickering over texts over small things, because he was becoming more distant (in my opinion) and he started calling me childish and needy because I wanted for things to be as wonderful as they are. Last week, after more bickering, he said that he's got tired of us, and that the novelty of our relationship wore off ages ago. I was so hurt that I called a break which he was fine with. I felt absolutely heart-broken, cried and regretted calling a break. So I contacted him 4 days later. He started speaking to me like normal but then said 'We're still on a break btw, to see how it goes', i desperately reacted in a way I shouldn't have and told him I didn't want to be on one, and he said that we had already agreed. He also said we could be friends, but who knows in the future. I miss him so much. and I wish I had not made some of the mistakes that I had done. There were flaws in our relationship but what relationship doesn't have flaws? I just need some advice on getting him back. If it wasn't for the distance, we could see each other more often rather than every 5-6 weeks, and have a real connection rather than lack of communication over texts. Since the break I've lost my appetite, and can't sleep. I've lost a couple of kg, and feel weak and tired all the time. I hate feeling like this.
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