Never had a chance to fall for him?

[tawny]

Hey guys, so there was this guy that courted me heavily. We were partners for a semester long project. After the project and semester ended, I began to notice him acting differently and realized he liked me and kept asking me to hang out with him and his friends.

 

I wasn't really into him but figured I'll see where it goes. I wasn't too comfortable with hanging out with him and his friends because I didn't know him that well despite the fact that we were project partners. That was it, we were just project partners. But apparently he thought otherwise while we were partners.

 

When he began to chase me, I don't think I was completely comfortable with the idea of being chased after. I typically blow off guys that hit on me or chase me like that because I feel like all they want is to sleep with me. I'm just not into this whole being chased thing. I honestly prefer a guy to simply want to hang out with me if he likes me. I want to just enjoy my time with them, and not feel the push of anything romantic just yet. That will scare me away.

 

Anywho, so I did feel that push. He made it very obvious he wanted to sleep with me the second time we "hung out". That was too much for me and I was close to not seeing him again. So, the way I feel when around him is that I feel completely fine when there is no touching (holding hands, hugging, him holding my waste). I feel like myself. But when we do touch, I feel a little more stiff and more serious--as I felt when he courted me. I feel a pressure to be affectionate and intimate when I'm not quite ready to be.

 

What should I do? It has actually been a couple months since he has courted me and the more he "touches" me the more I want to shy away and the more uncomfortable I become. Becaue of me being uncomfortable since the very beginning, I don't think I've really had the chance to really "fall" for him because he keeps making me feel this way by wanting to hold me.

 

There are most definitely times that I want to hold him, it just takes me a while to get to that comfort zone.

Edited March 20, 2012 by tawny