SpideyReign Posted March 18, 2012 Posted March 18, 2012 Alright i've never posted here but i have been looking on this forum for the past few months just to try and make myself feel better really to try and see if there is still hope. al fill you in with the details so you can at least see my predicament. I went out with my girlfriend for 7 years until she called it a day just before christmas gone.pretty uncool. as per most relationships we had our ups and downs but am sure if you asked her she would say more downs than anything for the last 6months. Anyways she dumped me and basically said that was it she didnt feel that anything could be done to salvage it because in her eyes too many things had transpired. This would all of been fine if i didnt love her which i do so it brings me here what am after mainly is to be told that yeah everything will sort itself out and she'll come back and it'll all be cool again but as the time has gone on its starting to look like thats not gonna happen. I saw her a couple of days ago when she finally came to pick up her things from my house and i did the manly thing of looking like a girl and a wouldnt like to say i begged her to try again but i pretty much did and she pretty much didnt seem to care yeah she was upset i was upset and she said that she deals with things differently to me i obviousley become a girly man and she becomes quite cold and distant. but i would of tried anything to make it work and she just doesnt seem to see the point i do feel that somewhere deep down she still has feelings for me but what with hardly seeing her and barely speaking via text it doesnt look like i'll find out. A dont even know what am asking for here other than reassurance that if she loved me once she could love me again but i know it doesnt always work like that.It just feels at the moment that a cant get through to her without coming across as either desperate which i am or angry which i am. clearly by the way i've wrote all this you can see i dont do much typing or writing but will give more details if needed yeah sorry for the wall of text
Moonless sky Posted March 19, 2012 Posted March 19, 2012 Hey there, I feel your pain. I can't however tell you what will happen. I really don't know. My boyfriend just broke up with me thursday...I have no idea why. But like you he is only looking at the bad and just sees the bad. If he calmed the heck down like a man and actually thought about it maybe he wouldn't of done this. I want him to come back too, I've had an obsession though with trying to get ahold of him because idk where he is, if he's with another girl already, and how can he be out having fun and with who? He never announced any new friends or anything. Anyway, I'm sorry for rambling on about myself I guess I can relate and need to release what I'm feeling too. So she had nothing to say to you wanting her back? I'm as desperate as you, but has it been strictly NC since the breakup? When did you two break up?
gotye Posted March 19, 2012 Posted March 19, 2012 she probably looks at you as weak and pitiful right now show her you are strong by moving on, going out with other girls my ex yesterday says we could possibly try again in the future... he seemed to just want to be friends right now... he still finds me really attractive though. think I should read this as a; no, not gonna happen. Cause that's how I feel it is. False hope.
Author SpideyReign Posted March 23, 2012 Author Posted March 23, 2012 (edited) ad like to say there was no contact since it happened in december but ad be lying theres been brief back and forths and am always the one that comes away with renewed hope which has always turned out to be false. av thrown sum accusations at her a figured she was getting close to someone else but who knows if thats just me being hurt trying to find answers and getting none. a sent her a text there probably sounding like a gril saying a dont hater her or anything and that a can appreciate why it had to happen makes me look weak a guess but no need to play games and be nasty for the sake of it seeing as a do love the girl maybes things do happen for a reason and if they do then its all just lame. al do me best to move on or a say that cos i still feel as bad as when it happened in december only difference is a can pretend am fine. a did speak to her the other day and just asked how it all got to this point and she slapped me right down and told me in no uncertain terms that she was done it wouldnt work and that she didnt want to try which hurt but kinda expected. yet i still have misguided hope that i am that truely awesome and that whoever she meets next pales in comparison to my sheer awesomness.............yeah. so yeah basically a told her today that a understand her choces and that am done a said i alwso might hit herup few months down the line just to see how she getting on an that weather or not she replys who knows but figured a could b nice and at least try to keep the door open somewhat. Still all a big mess that i never wanted ad like to think or i like to think its a case of grass is greener...see a do read this site...maybes eventually when she had time to herself she'll reflect on us and miss me but i guess al neber know which sucks. eitherways al still b waiting like the love sick puppy/loser i am. peace out people.......a did man up and finally properly delete her from facebook the bane of my life stupid noseynes from me thats a killer checking all the time has she met some one has she moved on all that. so i deleted and moved on or so i think Edited March 23, 2012 by SpideyReign cos' am an idiot.
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