b18bme Posted June 10, 2004 Posted June 10, 2004 I did it guys. I contacted her and started to plead again. I am so stupid so so so stupid. She finally said stop and I said oh my gosh what am I doing. I feel so dumb. I think it actually helped me in getting over her. But did not help me in getting her back. At this point in time I don't think I want her back anymore. I am realizing that we are both really young, and she is not ready for a relationship, with anyone according to her words. It seems like I can take that. I don't want to love somebody and want to be with them if they truly don't wanna be with and love me back. I am still gonna need help. I will probably keep bothering you guys alot for awhile. But be patient with me and give me some more advice. I know and can really just start to get over her after our conversation. It is so apparent that she wants nothing to do with me anymore. I have just been blinded with my first love.
Lonelystar Posted June 10, 2004 Posted June 10, 2004 Aw.. I know how you feel. I have been in your shoes before. Just let her be, and move on. Post here as much as you need and get it all out. If you need to talk i'm here. Goodluck
Author b18bme Posted June 11, 2004 Author Posted June 11, 2004 I went to her house for a little bit last night and now I am really confused. She is going to go through massage therapy, and I told her I wanted to help her and see her go through it. She said you will. Like I am gonna be there or something. Tonight is her gradutaion party and I told her I might bring my 4 year old niece cuz she loves my ex. She said okay my cousins are gonna be there and she can play with them and maybe they can make friends. Her cousins live near my niece and she said if they make friends then we can meet up and take them all to the park once in awhile. Like she still sees me in her future. Also after pleading with her lastnight she said this "I am not ready to get back with you YET". What is that supposed to mean "YET" like she is planning on doing so later time? After three days of no contact I had to send her a text message saying congrats for graduating, she wrote me back at 3:30am before she went to sleep saying Thank You. She was thinking about me before she went to sleep 2 nights ago. I also sent her a text message last night after I left her house and told her I would never plead, cry, or beg again and that I was really sorry for doing that. She wrote me back at 2:30am saying she was to drunk earlier to write me back but she was home and was going to bed, and that she knew it was really hard but that I can be strong and make it past all of this. She also said I am taking all of this to seriously and she is not worth crying over. I told her that she is very worth crying over because I am loosing my best friend and favorite person on this earth. She replied with "You are not loosing me I am right here". I am gonna be doing some No Holds Barred fights at this club in the next couple of months and she says she really wants to go see me. Like she still thinks she will be around or something. Someone please help me make sense of all of this. What should I do? Just move on and if it happens then it does. Should I do the no contact thing and hold my gound this time or what? Please give me some advice.
dudesomewhere Posted June 11, 2004 Posted June 11, 2004 duude...let's fight... well, if you aren't me your case might be positive. But I'd stick with just being as casual as a friend you can be, and I mean that you need to be a genuine friend...not being someone who is trying to hook up. I had a friend who reacted that way to me. We didn't have anything prior, no EX stuff. So with me I think I was her boredom breaker...now I don't mind that all that much but it messes with my whole honesty thing. I don't mind hanging out and doing stuff but don't look at me as the reserve tire . See my case is different from yours because she ignored me almost all the time...unless she needed something to do, which is kind of lame, lol seriously, let's fight dude....hehe
Author b18bme Posted June 11, 2004 Author Posted June 11, 2004 Not if that is you in your avatar, I am only 165, where are you from? Have you done combat fighting?
dudesomewhere Posted June 11, 2004 Posted June 11, 2004 my muscles only look big ahhh, arms the size of 2 liters...I likes . I'm only 170 and thinking about getting rid of all the muscle so I'll be a stick! hehe. Never done any fighting but I figure that would be cool between friends to do don't you think? Grown up play fighting if you will
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