l2hvn Posted June 10, 2004 Posted June 10, 2004 this morning, as i was getting ready to leave my bf's (3 mos) place, he was all happy and up, while i wasn't and i just gave him this "bitchy" look. he was puzzled. i just gave him a kiss on the lips and left (not to mention, it is that time of the month for me). i just got off the phone w/ him today. he was mad at me (he says he's not, but he is) because i gave him an attitude and he doesn't understand why. i don't know why i was bitchy this morning. i told him it's probably a culmination of things (stress from work and personal. i just found out last week that my dad has cancer) and that i lashed it out on him. i know he thinks im just making up some lame excuse. he thinks im too demanding and what not. i apologized for my behavior. he said he wasn't mad but "whatever." he doesn't want to deal w/ my sh*t right now b/c he doesn't have time for it. i told him all i ask is for him to be more patient and understanding. he said he's been very patient w/ me. and i said, "what are you trying to say?" he said he had to go fishing and he will call me later. then hung up the phone. i doubt he will call me tonite. i am so mad at him right now that after the phone call, i just feel like breaking it off w/ him. i feel like he doesn't care about me, about what im going through. he doesn't ask how my dad is doing. he thinks i don't want to talk about it. i think that if he truly cares about me, he would at least try and ask. we hardly spend time together anymore. he's been doing his stuff (i.e. fishing tournaments) and when he's home, he's always tired. after talking to my bestfriend, i've calmed down a little bit. i still feel neglected and misunderstood. am i demanding too much? expecting too much from him? am i right to feel this way? i am mad at him because i feel like he thinks that i am whining/demanding about little things. or like making a big deal about nothing. i know he's mad at me by the tone of his voice. and the choice of words he used... that's why i am so upset and disappointed.... i really really like him a lot.. but i feel like it's not being reciprocated. why can't he try to see that i am under a lot of stress and emotional? why can't he be more patient and understanding? why can't he see that i need him now more than ever?
UCFKevin Posted June 10, 2004 Posted June 10, 2004 You aren't doing anything wrong. He's being a bastard. Tell him how you feel. If he's still apathetic, say goodbye.
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