RonChalant Posted March 17, 2012 Posted March 17, 2012 Saw my ex for the first time in 3 months today...did not plan on it. Went to see an old friend and she told me she has seen my ex a few days before. Didnt really bother me...then I started drinking, lol never good. Long story short had the urge to text her and tell her not to send me the letter she's been writing me. She blows up but it doesn't phase me...until I get the urge to call. Have a...strange convo...don't even really know how to explain it but it was kind of an argument and kind of not...just an emotional convo. Then I get the urge to see her. She's on her way to her new man's house, but it doesn't bother me...I just want a damn hug lol. So I go see her for 5min and we hug for the first time in 3 months... Awww moment right...not really. I look at her and realize...she's not as attractive as I remember her being. I had this rosy picture of her in my mind and honestly I have women twice as attractive flirt with me on a regular basis ever since we've broken up. I feel like I've been blinded by love for the past 7 years due to the fact that I realized if I saw her on the street and didn't know her...I wouldn't try to talk to her let alone give her a second look. I'm really glad I broke nc...this was what I needed to happen. Before I broke it I looked at is as a game of who will call who first. In doing that I was subjecting myself to misery each day she didn't call. Now that I'm done with the game...I can officially move on. Yea I'm feeling some kind of way that I couldn't make her happy...but I also feel relieved, I put her on this giant pedestal that she didn't deserve and today I kicked it from under the bitc#es feet. And now I'm about to go get some cooter (lol) from my new chick (who is evil but has awesome sex) and I feel...like a new man. Comments, questions, fire away
Bradly Posted March 20, 2012 Posted March 20, 2012 Good for you! I hope to be there someday... I want some "cooter"
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