water4150 Posted March 17, 2012 Posted March 17, 2012 God damn...You would think after breaking up 5 months ago and just being on 3 weeks of nc things would get easier/better/normal... But the thing is they haven't. Well they are slightly better but just not good enough. My emotional state is normal. I don't tear up as much, I still have thoughts about her coming back, I still want her back and still love her. But I feel as if she is not coming back even though she is in GIGS. But thats what I have to go by is her not coming back. Everyday I wake up and I feel as if I think about her less and less. But the thing is...I don't want that to happen. I'm affraid that I might "fall out of love" for her and when she comes back I might reject her. I don't want that to happen. But then again who knows what the future is in store for me. There is a mutual friend that can keep us in arms reach even though we are on nc. The mutual friend favors me more (). Something deep inside tells me that she is the right one for me, it was just bad timeing. I tried talking to other girls and it just didn't feel right and it just wasn't there. I haven't seen her since before janurary, so I'm hoping she still thinks about me but I know she wants "something new". However, since break up I been continueing to work on myself and have been analyzing my mistakes and errors in the relationship. Since October the week of our break up I weighed nearly 128lbs now I'm up to 142lbs since I been constantly working out. Maybe one day she'll realize that she made a mistake...she may never realize it...but for now all I can do is keep nc and let my mutual friend do w/e she decides to do in keeping me in her thoughts. I hope some people can get something out of my journey...
budley12 Posted March 17, 2012 Posted March 17, 2012 I am in almost the same boat. I was dumped 4months ago. I started NC 4weeks ago. I would think it would be getting better but I still constantly think about him. My friends tell me one morning I will wake up and no longer care or think about him... but as of now I am still in love and want to see my ex so badly. We are on spring break now and I am thinking about getting together after break but idk if this would be good. I know he would see me because he said he still wants to be friends and wants me to stay in his life...
Nextlane Posted March 17, 2012 Posted March 17, 2012 Time will heal you. Look at the relationship head on and see why you have made such a mistake. If love that person enough, you must also understand what they want as well.
Cmac Posted March 17, 2012 Posted March 17, 2012 It'll take a lot longer than 3 weeks of NC before you feel better. I'm over 2 months NC now and still have days when I struggle.
gotye Posted March 17, 2012 Posted March 17, 2012 I am 5 days nc and 1 week since break up I keep reminding myself if I sit around waiting for him, nothing will be solved. I will only find happiness when I find happiness in myself... so I won't find a new love and I won't be with him again if I want him so bad constantly I figure if it is meant to be, it will happen but as everyone says reconciliation only works if people change during the time apart
nick d Posted March 17, 2012 Posted March 17, 2012 I'm on day 11 and I think I'm struggling more than ever. I'm hating life right now. It's amazing how someone you were with so long could care less about you.
Author water4150 Posted March 17, 2012 Author Posted March 17, 2012 I'm on day 11 and I think I'm struggling more than ever. I'm hating life right now. It's amazing how someone you were with so long could care less about you. I feel the exact same way. Someone who I was talking to everyday for 2.5 years....all of the sudden acts as if we never happened. And it's like he'll. I never cheated or yelled at or or anything. The last bad thing after the break up was me accusing her of hiding a guy from me. It was true but there wasn't anything physical between them. After the breakuP she basically club onto this guy. This guy is garbage. He was flirting with girls when he has a fiancé. It feels as if I'm just waiting for her to snap out of things and realize her mistake. But I just have no other girl to go to at the moment. I tried two girls but they failed badly. I'm just clinging to my mutual friend as a social replacement. It helps but damn not as much. I know my mistakes and I have changed. Idk what's going on with her at all. I would love to just see one text from her just to know that she thinking of me but I most likely wouldn't respond...
mike588 Posted March 17, 2012 Posted March 17, 2012 God damn...You would think after breaking up 5 months ago and just being on 3 weeks of nc things would get easier/better/normal... But the thing is they haven't. Well they are slightly better but just not good enough. My emotional state is normal. I don't tear up as much, I still have thoughts about her coming back, I still want her back and still love her. But I feel as if she is not coming back even though she is in GIGS. But thats what I have to go by is her not coming back. Everyday I wake up and I feel as if I think about her less and less. But the thing is...I don't want that to happen. I'm affraid that I might "fall out of love" for her and when she comes back I might reject her. I don't want that to happen. But then again who knows what the future is in store for me. There is a mutual friend that can keep us in arms reach even though we are on nc. The mutual friend favors me more (). Something deep inside tells me that she is the right one for me, it was just bad timeing. I tried talking to other girls and it just didn't feel right and it just wasn't there. I haven't seen her since before janurary, so I'm hoping she still thinks about me but I know she wants "something new". However, since break up I been continueing to work on myself and have been analyzing my mistakes and errors in the relationship. Since October the week of our break up I weighed nearly 128lbs now I'm up to 142lbs since I been constantly working out. Maybe one day she'll realize that she made a mistake...she may never realize it...but for now all I can do is keep nc and let my mutual friend do w/e she decides to do in keeping me in her thoughts. I hope some people can get something out of my journey... If you would of gone No Contact 5 months ago instead of 3 weeks ago you be doing much better. Actually your healing process/bu didn't start until 3 weeks ago...not 5 months ago. I know how tough it is....Stay in N.C. now..it gets better.
Author water4150 Posted March 18, 2012 Author Posted March 18, 2012 If you would of gone No Contact 5 months ago instead of 3 weeks ago you be doing much better. Actually your healing process/bu didn't start until 3 weeks ago...not 5 months ago. I know how tough it is....Stay in N.C. now..it gets better. Yea I know what you mean. But I needed hard reasons to go no contact and I did got what I wanted. Found out some shady stuff and my assumptions were right. And that have me the motivation I needed to start n continue nc
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