IfiKnewThen Posted March 10, 2012 Posted March 10, 2012 i allowed myself to fall for someone in a game i play. this after rising above heartache in the not so distant past. and i even thought all that bull crap that ..."wow i can feel for someone"....etc. we havent met but i got very emotionally involved and probably got way too personal too. i knew this person wasnt right for me from the beginning, but i allowed myself to feel alive again.....only to feel dread now, from how wrong they truly are for me. but heres the worst part. this game was like my playground. i love it. it helped me escape the depths of my pain with heartache in the not so distant past. and this is complicated but they are in my arena in the game ....and is a member of the same guild i am in and i am not leaving or dont want to go. but i cant stand having them in there now. its ruining my escape space and healing bigtime. i am not really asking advise. i don't know what i am saying right now. except : dont get involved with the wrong people if you know it really cant work out. red flags that you saw in the beginning...listen to them. i wish i could gut this pain i have inside me right now and the fury i have with myself for allowing it to go so far. i am not here to give advise either...just saying i made a BIG mistake ..and can only hope and pray i find peace again soon. and i can find refuge in my game again.
Phanpooh Posted March 10, 2012 Posted March 10, 2012 I think we were a same boat. I knew at begin, she wasnt a right for me. I hoped she would change later, but when time is right, she jumped to a rebound and believe that is true love, just having fun and dont need to share any hard issue. In this game, i betted all in, job, family, friend, and then, my ego, my confident, my life... Then she left, and said " i dont love you anymore, and i dont think i might love you in future". She just clam a door to my face, and i still want to tell her, i will make it be "never" somebody told me, she "deserve more", i said " if she cant handle me at my worst, then how you sure as hell she can deserve me at my best?" i willing to do everything just to place a smile on her face, but that also mean i could leave for one worth keeping. So, i dun hav advise or sth for you, i just feel you and want to give you a quote, it could help me being stronger day by day, or pass thought any sleepless night. " if you dont stand for yourself, no one will"
Author IfiKnewThen Posted March 11, 2012 Author Posted March 11, 2012 thank u for your heartfelt words and ai am sorry you suffer from a similar situation. its true we have to stand up for ourselves when we feel hurt or let down. and if they cant take the worse side of us....as in for better or worse....then i know they are not for us. i just really fell for him. i am so sad.
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