Numb79 Posted March 3, 2012 Posted March 3, 2012 I am so tempted to break NC right now!! Tomorrow will be 5 weeks since the BU and I have not spoken to her since. All I can recall is the last conversation.... how I did or didn't do this. I didn't even get a word in because I was in shock! Now I want to say my piece! I have things I wanted to say as well! I can't stand this right now.... I feel as if my heart wants to just leap out of my chest. It is such a bad feeling. I wasn't perfect but neither was she! Someone please help! I thought it was supposed to get easier as time went on!?!?
mike588 Posted March 3, 2012 Posted March 3, 2012 I am so tempted to break NC right now!! Tomorrow will be 5 weeks since the BU and I have not spoken to her since. All I can recall is the last conversation.... how I did or didn't do this. I didn't even get a word in because I was in shock! Now I want to say my piece! I have things I wanted to say as well! I can't stand this right now.... I feel as if my heart wants to just leap out of my chest. It is such a bad feeling. I wasn't perfect but neither was she! Someone please help! I thought it was supposed to get easier as time went on!?!? Been there done that!!! I came so very..very close many times wanting to break N.C. and I'm so grateful I didn't.DONT DO IT!! I too wanted to say my piece but it doesn't really matter..it's not going to change anything!!! It does get better..5 weeks isn't a long time. Believe me I know exactly how your feeling...I was once there too. I went 6 months of N.C. before she broke N.C. and I was so proud of myself for doing it. Give it more time...It didn't take me 6 months to put the b/u behind me...by then I was well on the road to recovery...you will too. Instead of breaking N.C. go somewhere where your alone...an open field..somewhere and yell...scream..get it out...I did and felt better.
nick d Posted March 4, 2012 Posted March 4, 2012 I feel you man!! I'm only on day 3 of NC and I'm so tempted! I just keep thinking about her beauty and beautiful smile! Ah! It's killing me!!!!
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