DazedandConfused91 Posted February 25, 2012 Posted February 25, 2012 Hey Everyone, I am extremely confused over a certain situation at the moment. Here is some detail as to how the relationship got started, etc. A few months ago I found myself unable to sleep and extremely bored so I decided in the wee hours of the morning to go on a site called stickam and just talk to random strangers. I came across one guy who is in the Military who lives 2000 miles away. At first I really thought nothing of it until we started talking more and more. We both started getting feelings for one another and in the end he was there more for me in 2 months then anyone has been in my 21 years. We went through more highs and lows then I went through with anyone else and not once did he leave my side and this was all during a time where we haven't even met yet. Before we even met (and Yes this is a bit fast) we talked about me moving out to Indiana getting a place together, kids, marriage.. He told me he loved me within a matter of a few weeks and the same vice versa. We moved extremely fast and it doesn't bother me.. The biggest low we went through was when I got arrested for a false charge which is still ongoing and He did NOT judge me once. He was there for me and still is. Anyway, We saw one another for the first time on Feb 19-24th and it was wonderful was not awkward or anything. The main reason he came here was to see me and to be there when it was time to appear in court. During his stay he did not allow me to pay for anything which is something I'm not use to. When he left I cried and felt horrible for the whole day. The only thing I wanted to do was sleep and ever since he left all I feel is negative about everything. I have my mind set that we won't work, that I am not good enough and that things are going to change and I assume it's for the worst. I am not sure if I should talk to him about this. Big reason I feel this way is because his ex's are so much better looking then I am and he is friends with two of them.. I dropped him off to the airport yesterday texted him that I got back home and that I loved him he texted back with he loves me too, then after that he let me know he landed to his connecting flight and texted me he was back home. I have not heard from him otherwise. I feel stupid for feeling this way and I don't know what to do to change it. I REALLY want this to work and I know it will never happen if I feel this way. I feel like I can't call him and talk to him how I normally would because if in the end my gut is right i'll feel stupid. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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