Melrapuo Posted February 9, 2012 Posted February 9, 2012 So this whole week has had me in a rather crummy state i guess. My dad had a total hip done last week, so my life for the past two weeks has been work and then visiting him in rehab (hes doing fine btw) My social life hasnt been as great as i thought it would be. I went on a date with a girl who i had only known from facebook. Went for coffee, then dinner a few nights later. Things went well, got to know her.more. i think on some level we clicked. Asked for a kiss, got one. (Im trying this thing out called being confident. Seems to be working lol) I had asked her to go bowling last saturday. She said yes, but cancelled last minute cuz she had gone somewhere with her fam and would be running late. I took it with stride even though i felt crappy, but in the same text she apologized and said anytime this week was great to reschedule (we're going tomorow). This would sound like a good thing, but i also found out.that this girl.is.going to italy for 3-6 months for a chance to cook in a very high class restaurant. Its a great opportunity, but shes leaving in a bout three weeks. I dont know where.this is going, or how she sees.this (we talk every now.and.then. usually i initiate convo to see how her week is going, or to confirm the time i can pick her up for dates. Tryinf not to be too pushy here.) To be honest though, ive never done flings or casual dating. Im not even sure.if thats what this is going to be, or even if i only want that. Q)In addition, ive been having dreams about my ex. (Broke up in dec. After three years. She fell outta love with me but we both werent happy.) We havent spoken since the break up, except for a text from her about items that i never responded to. I had deleted her off fb, and she started a whole new one. After she texted me she blocked me a week later. Im not thinking about her constantly, but the thought of her does make me depressed. I do miss her, but i know theres no point in talking to her. Itll only bring me more grief. So long story short im not happy. Ive been lifting, doing hobbies, moving on. Hasnt been easy. Im keepijg my chin up, but a nice ray of hope wouldnt be so bad right now. Sorry for the typos, doong tbis from my phone lol.
betterdeal Posted February 9, 2012 Posted February 9, 2012 Life, so messy, no? Maybe think about the girl you're seeing now as someone you're having fun spending time with and, whilst it may be sad to part when she goes to Italy, all the more reason to enjoy the time you do have together. As for the thoughts and dreams of your ex, if you accept they will be there, they tend to shrink and happen less frequently. Like the new girl, don't be sad it's over - be happy it happened. And good on you for supporting your dad in his recovery. Maybe you need to take a break sometime; have a bit of downtime from time to time? Just take each day as it comes: A new dawn, a new day. You'll be fine
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