lalalandman Posted February 1, 2012 Posted February 1, 2012 Betterdeal was in my dream towards the end hahaha. I remember he said 'well I don't agree and you need to get off your ass and go do something about it'. I think I'll most likely be up for the rest of the night now. The dream was completely sided with my ex. Everyone was on her side. I asked people and they said she was dating someone new. I just remember the whole dream I looked like a messy, needy, uptight butt, and she looked amazing. I accidentally flooded a house and everyone said I did it on purpose to make her look guilty. Then at the end, Betterdeal said something, and then I just rode off on a bicycle....it was lame. It's like my subconscious is trying to trick me, especially since I've been feeling so much stronger. And I know deep down she's still the same push/pull she's been all along. To tell someone you want them forever, invite them over, then start telling them you're still torn and you don't think it's a good idea to work things out. When I thought about it, I realized that she invited me over while both of her roommates were out of town. I think the last conversation we had was about how she changed her number, and also got into a bumper to bumper accident. Then the next week I got into the exact same type of accident. I told her about it, she asked if I was ok, then I said yes and said it was strange that we got in the same type of accident. She never responded back. That was Thursday. And I'm ok. I'm not going to let some silly dream mess with my progress.
JohnP82 Posted February 1, 2012 Posted February 1, 2012 Haha, I had a dream about my ex last night also. She looked great, but even in my dream she acted cowardly. Oh well, time to get the day going.
PelicanPete Posted February 1, 2012 Posted February 1, 2012 Ya know dreams are there to help you, messages from your unconscious with instructions towards living a healthier happier waking life. Some dreams are not significant, but those dreams that have 2 or more symbols with a storyline to tie it all together, that's no accident. Your unconscious mind speaks through universal symbolism, and considering your consciousness is only the tip of the iceberg, it's worth listening to. Houses are always a reflection of your "self". I'm assuming it wasn't a very nice house, considering the other imagery of you was messy and unkept. Flooding represents that your repressed emotions are overwhelming you. You aren't happy with yourself, you still got some issues to confront, but you're trying to ignore it by trying to find some sort of balance in your life [riding away on a bicycle]. You're literally flooded with feelings you refuse to confront. Betterdeal was probably a form of the old man archetype in your dream, giving you the advice of facing your demons and "doing something about it" And your ex is simply your ex, perhaps the reason your house flooded in the first place. You blamed her because all of the emotions are towards her, but everyone blamed you because it's your house. Your self, your feelings, your responsibility. So uhh not to throw a stick in the spokes, but according to your mind you still got some work to do.
betterdeal Posted February 1, 2012 Posted February 1, 2012 Spooky! I like Pete's interpretation. I also agree that these things are almost always bumpy landings. The more you open up to new feelings, the more the stale ones you put to one side for later will surface too. Now is later, if you see what I mean? It's all part of your progress. You are doing something about it by (a) having these weird feelings in dream form and (b) not letting them steer the course of your ship by not letting a silly dream stop your progress. Keep on keeping on!
Author lalalandman Posted February 2, 2012 Author Posted February 2, 2012 Yes very interesting interpretation from Pelican Pete. I enjoyed reading it and take it very seriously. Thanks for all the support. This has been the toughest 9 months of my life. Anyways, I guess I'll let you all know if anybody else from this forum pops up in my dreams like Betterdeal lol.
Author lalalandman Posted February 2, 2012 Author Posted February 2, 2012 I just want to give everyone some insight into this dream because I believe it is a very important dream....My very good friend gave me a bit of insight into it... The truth is, I've lived a block away from my exs house for 4 years. After the first year of dating, I decided to move about a block away from her parent's house, in Orange County. When we broke up in May, she started her new nursing career, and decided to pick up and move to Long Beach in June. Around the same time, my best friend, he moved to a different city.... I stuck here. I haven't wanted to leave the past behind. I've been here in the same house since she left. A block away from her parents. I think I still deep down expected her to show up here, like she always would. I realize that this house was the same house in my dream, and I am literally DROWNING in this house. I am, truly. There are too many memories. And she has moved on. I can hear it in her voice. I haven't. I really believe she meant what she said when she said she wanted me forever....it doesn't mean she wants to be with me, it means she wants to keep me around forever. The love is lost. I need to live up to my name lalalandman. Lalaland=Los Angeles. I'm always talking about moving up to LA from Orange County, and now is the time I do it. Tomorrow I'm giving my 30 days notice, and I will be moving. I need a big change. I will also be looking for a new job. I have an accounting degree. This is it. I'm riding away on my bicycle. It's really time.
betterdeal Posted February 2, 2012 Posted February 2, 2012 It's a hot, late summer's eve and even the flies are too hot to by buzzing... I sit in my rocking chair on the porch with a pipe in my mouth, watching you walk down the drive with nothing by a back pack, a heart full of hope and fistful of pride, heading towards a destination unknown, just somewhere out there, beyond this small town, and I think... I'm so *proud* of him.
betterdeal Posted February 2, 2012 Posted February 2, 2012 It's a hot, late summer's eve and even the flies are too hot to be buzzing... I sit in my rocking chair on the porch with a pipe in my mouth, watching you walk down the drive with nothing by a back pack, a heart full of hope and fistful of pride, heading towards a destination unknown, just somewhere out there, beyond this small town, and I think... I'm so *proud* of him.
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