MsKnightSoul Posted January 22, 2012 Posted January 22, 2012 Hello there its been awhile since i've been wanting to spill some beans, rants or whatever on here. I want to be able to put this here while i'm feeling&thinking this way. I wish I was single still lol I've been used to being single, like in person for 2-3years, and i dated online since then. Now that i'm in a relationship, kinda wanting out. Afraid to hurt this guy whom Ive been friends for 4yrs(never met yet but soon, we live 35mins away now..after those years ive been moving far but now im closer to him) he's been in bad relationships where these chicks cheated on him, caught them in bed with other man. Well he asked me out back in November, then he backed out, told me he needs to cope(he asked me out right after getting out of a bad relation) so i let him be, we never talked(in Dec for a month). me being free, single...loving it, flirting with my 7yrs of friendship bestfriend Darryl, i like him..i have confessed to him a lot in my teenage years, but he rejected me..i still his friend after those, though it was awkward for me lol not for him. Anyways, im still stuck on my single mind, that likes dudes lol. I was trying to get to a point were I was chatting with my ex xboxlive boyfriend, its almost a year since we broke up, 1 year off and on. He's the first one to be my longest online man lol, and the longest to get over (8months) after that he added me, cause i mailed him a letter telling him haha..if he wanted to be friends, if not he didnt need to add me. but he did, i was happy. but yeah, well i still feel that he likes me or something, unless im thinking ahead of myself and getting the wrong signal. but yeah.... lol.. i know i dont have good grammer, ur probably correcting me xD, anyways i kinda told my bf about my ex online bf, he asked if i was over him, i said yea. LOL but i think im a lil over him. DAmn...my bf even wants us to be engaged..*sigh* i wouldnt know till then because its the future, and im only thinking of now feelings. oh about darryl my bestii, well.. i hated to put myself "in a relationship" on FB cuz i didnt want Darryl to see it, cuz he ask me right away Lol! and I didnt even see him yet! when i go back up north, ima go visit Darryl, I always go visit him when i go back to my hometown. xD (My exonlineboyfriend; Jr. - My Bestii; Darryl - My BF; Brent) I know i shouldnt bother with this online ex, when I have a boyfriend, and even my Bestii. I'm bad for feeling like this lol, I might even have to tell my boyfriend, that i almost said no to him, when he was done coping. I told myself that i was done waiting on any guys who play around or make me wait on them. haha didnt happen. Welp, I guess i'll know my feelings then when i'm with Brent in person. Oh yeah, as I was talking to Junior, I felt like...talking about the past with him, I thought about it though so I just didnt bother. Just leave it alone, cause were done being together, but i still have these feelings, believing in it..or me thinking, i wish i was this person who i am today back then...maybe things wouldnt be like this. what to do....oh well thats all for now, peace it!
Philosoraptor Posted January 23, 2012 Posted January 23, 2012 From what I'm reading you've not even met this guy. Go ahead and be single.
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