loveletters Posted January 21, 2012 Posted January 21, 2012 Sigh* Here I go again, posting about MM. I miss him so much, all I want is to be able to kiss him again, hug him, and spend time with him. But that is far from possible now. We officially ended in October... and it was sort of off and on for the next 2 months, but now it's just completely dead. I still long for him, I hurt for him & I constantly think about him. I listen to love songs, wondering if we'll ever be the same... Why does he still text me? It's nothing big, just random texts about random things. Never about love or sex anymore. Is he really bored & lonely in his marriage that he has to do this (to me) ? I worked with him last Sunday (before the big snowfall) & he was so sweet & kind to me. He shaved, he did his hair & he wore the cologne that I love. WHY DOES HE STILL DO THIS? Yet he doesn't make any attempts like he used to. He tells me he still thinks about me alot, all the time & that he misses me..... I just don't get it. I have so many thoughts going through my mind right now it's hard to type them all out. At work, he doesn't even wanna touch me anymore. All he does is TALK TALK TALK TALK. He comes to my area constantly, still. He looks for me, he hounds me at work. Yet he doesn't wanna kiss me, touch or anything else. Then he says I could tell him anything I wanted, "I'm a big boy, I can handle it"... As if he were implying that I had a boyfriend and it wouldn't hurt him if I did. He still calls me BABY, HONEY, SWEETHEART. What the FU CK does he want from me????
skywriter Posted January 21, 2012 Posted January 21, 2012 Hi LL, It ended in Oct. and you were still in contact on and off for the next two months so you've not had enough time to get over him. If he's still texting then he may be hoping he can continue on, regardless of wether he mentions it or not. The shaving, nice cologne that he knows you enjoy, all red flags that he's hoping to continue on. Oh yea, all the names of affection, he's still hoping you're as in to continuing on as he is. You said this was'nt his first A, so, he knows all the right moves. Please, be strong!
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