Rimer Posted January 16, 2012 Posted January 16, 2012 Don't know what happen to me tonight. Total break down after watching a tv show.. geez.. Sobering for couple hours and went so low after listening to music my ex used to listen to all the time the lyrics hit me so hard I sent her an email with no title just the link to the song nothing else. I doubth she'll reply and I don't know why I did hit send? I guess hoping it will trigger something which I doubth will happen. Did I break NC or not? Was almost hitting 4 weeks:lmao:
CaliBabe Posted January 16, 2012 Posted January 16, 2012 Yes you did break NC. Your email to her showed that you are vunerable and that you miss her. You are back at day 1 of NC which is okay. Just remember to be stronger this time.
Cmac Posted January 16, 2012 Posted January 16, 2012 Yeah, everyone has slip ups though. Just learn from this. Next time you feel tempted to break NC remember how you're feeling right now. It'll help prevent you from doing it again.
Author Rimer Posted January 16, 2012 Author Posted January 16, 2012 (edited) AH **** *bangs head against wall* Day 1 Edited January 16, 2012 by Rimer
Pens55 Posted January 16, 2012 Posted January 16, 2012 Dont worry, about all of us have done it. You do learn though, I used to be a serial NC breaker. I could not control my impulses at all. This time, I've been strong thus far. For some reason, the past couple days have been really hard for me, but I'll get through it. Just remember, its almost certain that no matter what you say, it wont improve the situation. THEY have to realize it themselves, without our prodding. When all else fails, delete numbers/emails/etc...I think that has saved me a few times..
BoredAgain Posted January 16, 2012 Posted January 16, 2012 It happens. Just remember that the more you are able to fight the urge to break NC, the easier it will be to fight it the next time you're feeling weak. And as Pens55 said, it's often helpful to delete phone numbers, email addresses, etc. Sometimes adding that extra 2 seconds of effort it would take to write/call can make a HuGE difference.
Chi townD Posted January 17, 2012 Posted January 17, 2012 AH **** *bangs head against wall* Day 1 Dude! LOL!!! It happens! You aren't the first to break NC and you won't be the last. Just chalk it up to lessons learn! Rule of thumb! Never have your phone on you when you're drinking....
Author Rimer Posted January 17, 2012 Author Posted January 17, 2012 wow.. just by mistake was looking at my sent emails and I noticed I indeed sent this email to the her old email address she doesnt use anymore... did I dodge a bullet? still tempted to send the same email.. whats wrong with me
Philosoraptor Posted January 17, 2012 Posted January 17, 2012 wow.. just by mistake was looking at my sent emails and I noticed I indeed sent this email to the her old email address she doesnt use anymore... did I dodge a bullet? still tempted to send the same email.. whats wrong with me Maybe she wont see it but you certainly didn't help yourself by sending it. You obviously shouldn't send it again to another address either.
Author Rimer Posted January 17, 2012 Author Posted January 17, 2012 Maybe she wont see it but you certainly didn't help yourself by sending it. You obviously shouldn't send it again to another address either. yeah thanks... she won't see it because I have the rights to that email address as I took our internet connection when we broke up
sunflower11 Posted January 17, 2012 Posted January 17, 2012 You'll be okiee...I broke NC 3 times whenever I would hit 2 weeks and now, next week will mark 2 months for me. Don't give in to those weak moments!!
Author Rimer Posted January 17, 2012 Author Posted January 17, 2012 Maybe she wont see it but you certainly didn't help yourself by sending it. You obviously shouldn't send it again to another address either. You mean hurt my healing process ? sunflower11 thanks for the encouraging words.. gotta stay strong!
Philosoraptor Posted January 17, 2012 Posted January 17, 2012 Yes of course sending it hurts your healing. Hopefully you will learn though and it will help you remember that you need to continue to be stronger in the future.
sunflower11 Posted January 17, 2012 Posted January 17, 2012 Also I think....you don't need her to see it for you to KNOW you contacted her. Be honest with yourself!! If you ever feel like writing to her again, just do it on a piece of paper and let it out but don't email it to her.
Author Rimer Posted January 17, 2012 Author Posted January 17, 2012 I know I hurt myself. I just don't why I always need reassurance to everything connected to emotions or myself
Philosoraptor Posted January 17, 2012 Posted January 17, 2012 That reassurance needs to come from within. It took me awhile to learn as well but life is so much easier when you are confident and happy within yourself.
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