Bobby289 Posted January 11, 2012 Posted January 11, 2012 So anyone who is still on here from a few months back knows my back story if not just look it up. When I left I was still hurt and was on the fence still about how I viewed my ex, my view point changed every day. I fully cut myself off from everyone except my family and long time friends. I was very careful not to talk about my ex to anyone if it came up as it stirred emotions and I knew I would get a bias opinion. I have no social networks so there is no contact unless she calls or texts me. Which leads me to where I am now... Since the day she broke up with me she has been going out and partying from what people tell me. I say if thats what she wants to do, do it, it's her life. It's just not what I find attractive in a girl. I have had 2 drunk dials from her and both about her being mad I never try to contact her anymore and blaming me for ****. I just laugh and get an apology text the next day. I got a text on new years eve saying that someone told her I was speaking ill of her at the party she was at, blaw blaw blaw. Again just trying to pull on that chain but I know better and just said to stop bothering me with petty **** as it is in the past and I would have a normal conversation if she wanted but not this.(no reply after that lol). So I do still care about the girl and love the person she was when I was with her but I do not love who she has been lately so It makes it easier to move on. Maybe one day she will be her old self again but I am not holding my breath. I have been doing better in school and work, pushing myself at the gym harder than ever, and being more social and outgoing than ever before. All for me and only me. Overall I needed this break up to be me again, it was a blessing in disguise. I do still think about her at least once a day and know I am not ready for a relationship anytime soon. Coming from waking up every morning to a empty pillow and turning back over depressed to where I am now it feels good. "You can't start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one". The moral of my rant is, time heals all wounds and you come back stronger and with a new outlook on everything, as cheesy as it sounds. I love my friends who have stuck by me through all of this and I feel sorry for the ones who left. Also this site helped me more than I can say so I will try to stop in more often now that I can with a clear mind.
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