Jdw_Icequeen Posted January 8, 2012 Posted January 8, 2012 So I have taken a long break from here after visiting the breakup area for a long time on more then one occassion.. That and the fact an ex was reading my posts.. Long story short.. Its been a year and I am dating again.. I'm tired already lol.. I have been out on ALOT of "dates".. I say dates because I tell them I'm only going out with them as "friends".. I am finding guys to be very pushy!! There already talking about a relationship on the first phone call or about sleeping together.. I have put it simply as I am not hunting for a relationship. I am finding it fun to meet new interesting ppl and don't mind just keeping them as friends if the spark isn't there.. Well I am very picky and I have only come across 2 of them I actually liked. The first guy we hung out for a few months but because I told him I was only looking for friends he looked at it as only that and didn't see the spark! It ended up being a good thing as he was coming out of a divorce and I really don't think he was ready for a comittment.. He was married for a long time I feel those guys really need some time to maybe date a few diffrent women and get the "I need attention syndrome" out of their system. Nothing at all happend with this guy other then hanging out. Then #2 I really liked him we saw eachother for a short period and I broke it off because drama seemed to be one of his favorite past times. He has women txting hima ll the time some he had enver met.. He never had a problem telling me. But I can't help wondering how he got associated with these crazies and he needs way to much attention.. Well I really cared about this guy to we talked all the time and spent alot of time together. So now I think to myself.. What exactly did I do wrong here.. My biggest mistake falling for someone I thought I knew.. This after him calling me 3 times a day and txting me all day everyday.. Yes that should have been my first red flag.. But ehh I have to admit I was enjoying the attention too.. I've been on a semi dating site that you can also use for friends and networking.. I had a really strong connection with this guy which isn't easy for me to have with someone. Biggest mistake not taking it MUCH slower? I think? Its almost scary for me to have strong feelings for someone after all the cuts and bruises I have had in the past.. It makes me nervous.. I'm ok being alone but the lonley feeling is somtimes a bummer..
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