Sentient6 Posted December 31, 2011 Posted December 31, 2011 (edited) Hey LS guys, it's been about a month since the BU and we only spoke once during that time 4 days ago(on Christmas day, I initiated it). I believe things are going well for me and I've made big BIG progress in getting over it and trying to move on.I'm going out more often, chatting with more people, studying better and feeling better in general. I'm thinking about her less as the days go by, but sometimes my emotions burst out and I find myself thinking about her, feeling devastated and burst into tears just at the thought of her.Thank god I haven't run into her so far(We live in the same neighborhood) because I can't fking imagine what my reaction would be and if I will be able to play it cool. After reflecting on our relationship all this time, my mistakes, her mistakes and everything that led to the BU I've come to realize that I clearly don't want her back.At least I think so atm.I strongly believe that.AARGGHH!!I'm sooo confused, but for sure I don't believe that things can work between us again even if we both decide to give it a second chance(which won't happen, at least on her part and 90% sure on my part:p). I don't have anymore to give(REALLY) to this relationship and I know she doesn't either. I feel I'm ready to move on. I want to move on, I really do. So I'm wondering "Why the hell do I still burst into tears almost every fking time she crosses my mind?? Why can't I control my feelings when I think about her and our time together??" I know that time will help and wash away the pain, but what can I do to get finally rid of these thought and feelings?? Happy NY to everybody!!! Stay strong and have a great time tomorrow!! Hope 2012 brings happiness,joy...and justice for all:cool: Edited December 31, 2011 by Sentient6
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