headsashed Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 Its now xmas eve,the big day tomorrow,how is everyone feeling? what you all upto? I can honestly say i feel crap lol and i wont be doin anything this xmas,all my family are on holiday and im pennyless so ill be home alone all xmas. Tomorrow is going to be hard for me and no doubt everyone else on here whom cant share this special day with their loved on. I shall no doubt be here on LS posting today and tomorrow. Just wish i could get into the xmas spirit lol.
M2155 Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 Unless there are little kids around, Christmas has always been just a regulard day for me. When I'm not with fam (tomorrow I will be) I take the opportunity to sleep and watch TV with absolutely no cares. To be honest, I prefer the latter. I've never spent a Christmas with a boyfriend anyway, seems more family than romantic holiday for me so, no its not making me feel lonely or anything. And if it did, fortunately I've got more important things to do now. Enjoy your day of peace and work on your goals for 2012 .
ScienceGal Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 Tonight I will spend with my family. I'll be home early though, since it's primarily for the kids in my family. Christmas day has historically been the day that I would spend with my significant other's family. It's just another day. (I keep saying that). sigh.
mike588 Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 A few months ago..even last month I was sooooo dreading X-Mas but now it doesn't bother me that bad...a pleasant surprise. Of course I'd prefer to spend it with her it things had worked out and she did'nt dump me. I get alittle sad thinking back to last year how we made passionate love by the light of the roaring fireplace close to the X-Mas tree Christmas eve and Christmas night.....I just try not to think about it.
stunned8165 Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 A little numb and a little sad because I miss the kids and it hurts to think that the new guy is with those kids. But I can tell you one thing, he isn't Daddy like I was. But I'll be fine. I have plenty of plans with family.
TheDovic Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 Hey buddy... I'm not feeling too bad today but no doubt tomorrow will be tough! I went out last night and met a girl who seems nice, so I've been chatting to her on fb. Don't see myself being able to be in a relationship yet, but it's perked me up a bit. What are you doing today dude?
sunflower11 Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 Im dreading tonight and tomorroe...theres a big hole in my stomach and i keep wondering what hes doing. blahhhhh
Author headsashed Posted December 24, 2011 Author Posted December 24, 2011 Im dreading tonight and tomorroe...theres a big hole in my stomach and i keep wondering what hes doing. blahhhhh Same as me,minus the "he's" lol, im holding up ok at the minute but soon as tonight comes ill feel shocking,and tomorrow will be even worse,but its just another day towards healing,just doesnt help when i get abusive txt messages lol.
stunned8165 Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 Me or stunned? Hang in the Mike. This too shall pass. Avoid the Christmas music..lol .. The tough part for me isn't her, it's the kids. Keep in mind, we are the better person here. We deserve better then what was handed to us.
mike588 Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 Hang in the Mike. This too shall pass. Avoid the Christmas music..lol .. The tough part for me isn't her, it's the kids. Keep in mind, we are the better person here. We deserve better then what was handed to us. Thanks...I really am doing better...even X-Mas music doesn't bother me. It feels so good to feel good again and the worst is over.God that was hell!!! You hang in there too..Merry Christmas and my best to you!!
sunflower11 Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 Same as me,minus the "he's" lol, im holding up ok at the minute but soon as tonight comes ill feel shocking,and tomorrow will be even worse,but its just another day towards healing,just doesnt help when i get abusive txt messages lol. Yea!! Tonight it will hit me cause it doesnt quite feel like xmas yet..sigh its just two days and i WILL enjoy myself tonight..he has had 3 months of my suffering already..he wont steal my xmas away too.. big hugs to you headsashed! We can do this!'
Author headsashed Posted December 24, 2011 Author Posted December 24, 2011 Im doing my very best,ive been pretty strong these past few days even though i knew xmas was gonna be pretty hard,last night i was getting drunken nasty txt messages and now they startin again,im sure shes tryin to ruin my xmas lol. i literally cannot wait until its all over.
SkyEmtRN Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 What I feel? I can't put it in words...maybe lonely, sad, angry, dont know what to do...Lost my other half of me someone who I would always talk to someone who was always there. Now where is she? I have no clue, dont know what shes doing and all I keep thinking about is what she is doing and who she is with. I hate this, I wish it never happened. Don't even want christmas to come, don't even care about christmas. All I want is for her to come back...that is my only christmas wish. Thats the only gift I want. But I know that is not going to happen and if it does, it'll be a miracle but I'm not getting my hopes up waiting for her. It's not going to happen.... Yea I feel like crying, feel like I want to knock someone out. I just don't know what to do with myself. Its to the point where I'm eager to go to work and I work in retail...the worse place anyone should be this time of year.... God please bring her back this christmas....
Steven T Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 What I feel? I can't put it in words...maybe lonely, sad, angry, dont know what to do...Lost my other half of me someone who I would always talk to someone who was always there. Now where is she? I have no clue, dont know what shes doing and all I keep thinking about is what she is doing and who she is with. I hate this, I wish it never happened. Don't even want christmas to come, don't even care about christmas. All I want is for her to come back...that is my only christmas wish. Thats the only gift I want. But I know that is not going to happen and if it does, it'll be a miracle but I'm not getting my hopes up waiting for her. It's not going to happen.... Yea I feel like crying, feel like I want to knock someone out. I just don't know what to do with myself. Its to the point where I'm eager to go to work and I work in retail...the worse place anyone should be this time of year.... God please bring her back this christmas.... Heartbreaking post... But I agree. This will be the first Xmas without her. I hope I will be okay tomorrow.
HLP234 Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 My gf and I have not broken up. Even though I am with her this holiday, it feels weird because of the previous encounter I had with finding out and thinking she may be leaving for someone else. When we are together we seem fine yet I can feel she is acting different. This holiday is the same as the last where my ex had just left. Hopefully we can figure something out. Its really tough to enjoy the holidays when you feel like something is up and things are not the same in a way. We had another argument yesterday where I felt like she just wanted to go and when I asked, she of course would put blame on me saying I wanted out when I don't but I feel like she was not happy anymore. I don't get why when you tell them look I feel as if you are not happy with me anymore so if you want to go then I guess its fine, they put the blame on you as if you are the one telling them to leave.
dicky_fish Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 What I feel? I can't put it in words...maybe lonely, sad, angry, dont know what to do...Lost my other half of me someone who I would always talk to someone who was always there. Now where is she? I have no clue, dont know what shes doing and all I keep thinking about is what she is doing and who she is with. I hate this, I wish it never happened. Don't even want christmas to come, don't even care about christmas. All I want is for her to come back...that is my only christmas wish. Thats the only gift I want. But I know that is not going to happen and if it does, it'll be a miracle but I'm not getting my hopes up waiting for her. It's not going to happen.... Yea I feel like crying, feel like I want to knock someone out. I just don't know what to do with myself. Its to the point where I'm eager to go to work and I work in retail...the worse place anyone should be this time of year.... God please bring her back this christmas.... Really could not have said it better myself.
SkyEmtRN Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 Really could not have said it better myself. All we do is pray. I'm not a religious person, never went to church...now I'm praying for just one little simple thing. Never prayed for anything...just this... Merry christmas to all, try to keep your head up...not easy but try...
CaliBabe Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 I am feeling okay. I am a little sad that this would be my first Christmas without my ex but life doesn't stop for anyone. So I just move on. I considered texting him a Merry Christmas greeting, but then I thought, what for? Any communication needs to come from him.
ZimboGon Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 I'm so confident in my relationship with her and my actions. Its been 4 weeks no contact, and she's with her new rebound boyfriend. I'm not really upset, because i'm almost positive some time she will come back.
stunned8165 Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 My gf and I have not broken up. Even though I am with her this holiday, it feels weird because of the previous encounter I had with finding out and thinking she may be leaving for someone else. When we are together we seem fine yet I can feel she is acting different. This holiday is the same as the last where my ex had just left. Hopefully we can figure something out. Its really tough to enjoy the holidays when you feel like something is up and things are not the same in a way. We had another argument yesterday where I felt like she just wanted to go and when I asked, she of course would put blame on me saying I wanted out when I don't but I feel like she was not happy anymore. I don't get why when you tell them look I feel as if you are not happy with me anymore so if you want to go then I guess its fine, they put the blame on you as if you are the one telling them to leave. I know how you feel. I noticed a change in mine last year after Halloween. All she did was blame it on the stress of working full time and being a full time Mom. Bottom line is, she is screwed up. She finally left at the end of may for what I felt in my gut was the reason. She left for her boss. 7 months out at the end of this month. I'm feeling the pain of missing the kids. But as time goes on, I realize more and more that everyone is right about me dodging a bullet. Hang in there. Try not to let her step over your boundries like I did. I know, easier said then done. But prepare yopurself very well. Because if she drops the ax, it's going to hurt. ...
Melrapuo Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 What I feel? I can't put it in words...maybe lonely, sad, angry, dont know what to do...Lost my other half of me someone who I would always talk to someone who was always there. Now where is she? I have no clue, dont know what shes doing and all I keep thinking about is what she is doing and who she is with. I hate this, I wish it never happened. Don't even want christmas to come, don't even care about christmas. All I want is for her to come back...that is my only christmas wish. Thats the only gift I want. But I know that is not going to happen and if it does, it'll be a miracle but I'm not getting my hopes up waiting for her. It's not going to happen.... Yea I feel like crying, feel like I want to knock someone out. I just don't know what to do with myself. Its to the point where I'm eager to go to work and I work in retail...the worse place anyone should be this time of year.... God please bring her back this christmas.... In the exact same boat as you, my friend. I think I've cried two or three times today, and believe me I wish I could make it stop. I keep looking for answers, whether I should just let go completely and move on or hold out hope...but she hasn't called since we broke up last week, or texted. Today I was supposed to be over her house for Christmas eve dinner. Now I'm stuck at home in front of a computer, with nothing to do. I wish I wasn't wallowing in sadness, but I don't really have anything to do to keep myself occupied. She's probably just relieved everything is over between us. Granted, we weren't working out because the same issues were never resolved, but they were issues that we could only confront as individuals, and she refused to get therapy. Even though people tell me its not my fault, and there was really nothing else we could do, it doesn't stop me from wishing she would change her mind and wanna try things still. Merry Christmas to you, too. I really hope everyone here pulls through
HLP234 Posted December 24, 2011 Posted December 24, 2011 I know how you feel. I noticed a change in mine last year after Halloween. All she did was blame it on the stress of working full time and being a full time Mom. Bottom line is, she is screwed up. She finally left at the end of may for what I felt in my gut was the reason. She left for her boss. 7 months out at the end of this month. I'm feeling the pain of missing the kids. But as time goes on, I realize more and more that everyone is right about me dodging a bullet. Hang in there. Try not to let her step over your boundries like I did. I know, easier said then done. But prepare yopurself very well. Because if she drops the ax, it's going to hurt. ... Its just tough knowing you spent a year with someone and both of you fell so in love to the point you would not feel the same with anyone else. She claims she feels this way still, but my gut feeling tells me otherwise. She wants to get married but she does not have other priorities as I do, we are engaged so the pain will be even greater if/when she leaves. I've been trying to prepare myself at the same time comforting her and trying to just forget about what she has been doing or talking about with this other kid. Says she felt the way she does because she saw I was being different towards her. So I am trying to go back to the same way I was when we were first dating. Trying really hard and it takes time knowing that there may be someone else. Hope everyone's holiday is good, try to keep your head up.
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