headsashed Posted December 23, 2011 Posted December 23, 2011 Not just xmas but all these damn memories and feelings. The past few days ive done nothing but dream about my ex and constantly think about all the memories we had,why i dont know,because they hurt me. Im tryin everything i can to not think about her,i think maybe its just the holidays thats bringing all this on. Last night night i took a big step and went out with a female friend which tbh helped loads,until i got home,i was alone again and thinking,and my tv being broken isnt helping lol. Then out of the blue i got an anonymous phone call,yes,it was the ex,i asked what she wanted and she just started hurling abuse towards me,all because id been out with this friend,she obviosuley found out through this girls facebook somehow,mutual friends maybe,i dont know,but this is why i stopped using facebook and deactived my account. I asked her only 1 thing and that whas why she went on my facebook,she said "i dont know" ..Then the abuse started again so i simply put the phone down,id had a good night out and didnt want anything to spoil it,she txt me and said "you didnt need to put the phone down you ignorent ba**ard"..i never replied. Ive done ok tbh in these past few days minus the dreams and memories thing and im glad i put the phone down on her,i wouldnt have done this before. I suppose this is just a rant because im feeling a little crappy today,full of cold and had yet another dream about her,i cant wait for the day i stop dreaming and thinking about her. The only thing that bothers me is i always think of the good things we did,i cannot think anything bad about her and i dont know why. Anyway,thanx for reading my stupid rant lol.
Author headsashed Posted December 23, 2011 Author Posted December 23, 2011 also,i still have her laptop,should i take it to hers today? i dont know if shes working or not..If not then im sure she wil end up comin to mine for it which tbh i dont want. I know she needs it for work soon.
M2155 Posted December 23, 2011 Posted December 23, 2011 Are we still talking about this laptop?? Please get this piece of equipment out of your life. Some way that avoids confrontation. You sound like you need to change your number or either never answer anononymous calla. You engaged her call instead of saying you do not wish to speak to her! You know very well what you're going to get, so don't even bother trying to have a conversation. Your starting today resolution-DON'T ENGAGE.
Author headsashed Posted December 23, 2011 Author Posted December 23, 2011 laptop is 100% going today anyway,ive decided ill just go drop it off at hers. Im not allowed to change my number just yet either but i know my contract runs out very soon so maybe it best to get another contract with someone else. As for anonymous calls,well,my parents are away a very lot in other countries so when they ring me its all anonymous anyway so for all i know it could have been them,i know i shouldnt have even engaged in a converstation with her but i suppose i wanted to hear what she had to say,stupid i know. In the end i put the phone down simply because i dont want any abuse off her. The only way is to change my number again,but thats next month i think. Atleast once the laptop has gone she has NO reason to ever come here again and ill just have to get my parents to txt me instead of ringing,may make things a little easier
Author headsashed Posted December 23, 2011 Author Posted December 23, 2011 i walked to hers with the laptop,in this horrible weather,got literally soaking wet only for no-one to be in lol,as i was like 2 mins from my house i saw my ex drive past me with her friend in the car,typical lol.. I know i shouldnt have done this but i left it about 20 mins and txt her saying im going to walk down in 10 mins with the laptop,will you or someone be at home,guess what,she never replied. I might just wait until the rain has stopped and walk back down,just hope someone is in this time.I try being civil with her and finalise everything just as she wanted and she chose to ignore me lol,hmm.
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