NordicStripes Posted December 18, 2011 Posted December 18, 2011 Hi guys, I'm back. Short recap: * Me and x-bf were together for 3 years (well, a week off) and loving together for the most of those 3 years. * Things had been going bad for a while (I was very jealous, he was very lazy and unmotivated) * He gets a job for ten days at a café at a festival, meets lots of new colleagues * He distances himself from me. We were going to go on a vacation together but he blew me off to go with his mates instead. * I have to go abroad for three days for work. When I get back he dumps me. * The next day he tells me he wants us to give it one last try. He's still very distant. I go into therapy to try and save the relationship. * After about 5 days he dumps me again. For good now. * I immediately move out and go to my sisters. I call him a couple of times. He's very emotional. * I stop calling. There's no point. My life consists out of crying all day in my sisters couch. Can't eat, can't sleep. * After about a week or maybe longer I go to my hometown for an evening with friend. When I walk home that evening I see my ex kissing one of his colleagues. My heart break. I crumble. One of my friends comes and gets me. * When we have a long phonecall my ex admits that he has been sleeping with this colleague, but that he's realised that he feels bad about it and that he made it clear to her that he doesn't want that. * We meet up a couple of days later to get some stuff in the house sorted. He makes it clear that he wants me back. I tell him that before I can even consider that he has to quit his job immediately and break all communication with that colleague of him. He calls his work to quit, and the girl calls him while I'm in the room. He tells her that the whole thing didn't mean anything to him and that he's not interested in hearing or seeing her ever again. Incidently, the girl is know in our hometown as 'the mattress'. She's only 20 years old (I am 25, my ex is 23) and has slept with A LOT of people, and cheated on every single boyfriend se has ever had. Also she looks like a troll (her face is extremely ugly, her body is that of a 10-year old boy). * Ex and I meet up about 2 times after that. He seems very in love with me. I have made the decision to move to another country though. SO I leave. * After about 6 weeks, the ex follows me to the new country I live in. To save money we share a room. We have had sex two times in the last 6-7 weeks. I'm not sure why I did that. We kiss often. But even though I still have feelings for him I don't want to be together right now. I need space. * I have to move back to my homecountry but will be living in another city. The ex will follow me once again. We'll be living seperately. The thing is, even though I would really like this to work out, I feel a lot of anger and resentment towards him. Especially about him sleeping with someone else so soon after the breakup. I try to get over that but I think about it 24/7. So you can imagine, I'm not happy right now... When we are not fighting (and it's always me who starts fighting because Ican get so angry at him) everything is fine and nice. He is very loving and caring towards me, much more than he ever was.... He also knows I won't take him back anyway if he doesn't find a steady job...
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