AlisaMarie Posted December 14, 2011 Posted December 14, 2011 It's been a while... but I wanted to talk about some of my recent feelings. After a little spat of drama that I completely ignored with my ex and his gf... I realized how much better I truly am without him. Their behavior opened my eyes to the toxic ways and patterns that she is clearly getting sucked into. Oh well, not my problem anymore. I have found a beautiful sense of freedom. I haven't been tied down to torturous worries of cheating and lying. My weekends and nights are free because I am not obligated to watch a child that isn't even mine. Although I loved that baby, he was not mine but all of the responsibilities of motherhood were placed on me. I am sure it was in benefit for the child's well being, but I enabled the ex to be a lazy bad parent. I realize that now and I pray that he cares and loves his son as he is suppose to. After I felt as if I can get through the day without worrying, I decided to start dating. It's really hard to catch that spark with someone when you're so emotionally beat down... but I actually clicked with someone that I have known for a long time. We never dated but always crushed on one another. It's been a couple weeks and he gives me this childish nervousness but also a great sense of calmness. It's unlike anything I have ever experienced. I don't want to dive right in because of course this new found relationship doesn't come without baggage. He was still in pain from his ex. We seem to serve as distractions to one another for the time being... but only time will tell if this can turn into more. Thanks for listening everyone. I hope your holidays are beautiful and enchanting!
geegirl Posted December 14, 2011 Posted December 14, 2011 I'm happy for you Alisa. I remember your struggles and it's great to see you getting to the other side. And feeling butterflies again! I hope your new found interest keeps you beaming with joy, especially with the coming holidays!
smokey bear Posted December 14, 2011 Posted December 14, 2011 He was still in pain from his ex. We seem to serve as distractions to one another for the time being... but only time will tell if this can turn into more. QUOTE] RED FLAG ARE YOU CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry if this sounds harsh but this is a serious warning sign and by now you should have read enough stories on here to know how this is going to end.
wilsonx Posted December 14, 2011 Posted December 14, 2011 Watch that pain for his ex, its too early, you are better then that Alisa... I understand the crushes but you are going to be crushed if she magically appears back in his life. Just because something doesnt immediately start as a spark dont dismiss it either. Good luck with your future journeys and I am glad you see the light
Author AlisaMarie Posted December 15, 2011 Author Posted December 15, 2011 I see how that can be a red flag... But honestly hes someone I've known forever it it feels good right now. They were together for 10 year and broke up over a year ago. She does the push pull with him as I experienced with my ex. I think even if he goes back to her at least it made me feel good and know that I'm able to feel this way esp after the emotional and physical abuse that I put up with.
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