SkyEmtRN Posted December 10, 2011 Posted December 10, 2011 Ok so I know I keep posting that: "Oh I'm going NC..." I keep breaking it but this time and I really mean it this time...I am going NC. Last night me and my ex had a conversation through text. It first started off that she sent me a message at night saying "hey hope you have a good day, ugh today was such a long day" I didn't responded. Then the next day when I'm in my clinical rotation she says "Not talking to me fine. ok im not looking to date anyone atm" I didn't respond. Then later that night I sent a message saying "lol relax, if you want to talk then call me or come see me, I'm not going to play this cat and mouse game through text messages since you get mad when I don't text you but when you don't text me I don't get mad" Eventually she responded with sad smiley face and said "I never wanted to cut you out of my life" I said "I never wanted to break up" I forgot what else was said but we eventually got on the topic of meeting up. I said "why don't you try seeing me and maybe things will be different" She said "ok I'll see you....but don't think that we will get back together just by meeting up" I said "trust me thats far from what I'm thinking." Then she said "not thonight though b/c I'm not ready and No I don't have plans with anyone" I said "well when your ready then come get me, but don't think that if we do see eachother we won't get back together. I'm having a neutral mind set here, it can go either way. I hope you do the same and that you don't go onto any other guy before we meet" She said "ok" at around 11pm which was a hour or so after that message Side Story: So that night after work I went down to the beach. I didn't know what else to do or else to talk to. So I talked to "the guy upstairs". I normally don't do this but I had no where else to go to. I spoke and I spoke and I asked for a sign if she will come back. I asked numerous of times. Then I decided to write our names in the sand with a stick. As I was about to write our names it started to rain. There was no indication of rain for that day, it was cloudy but it wasn't rain clouds. It only rained in that area I was in and it lasted for 5 minutes. No other town had rain. Coincidence? Sign? Idk what that means but it sure was odd. So when I got home I turned on my computer and AIM, and there she was online...she only talks to me online on AIM and she fell asleep with her computer online. She knew I would be home at around 11pm, so I checked her online time and she signed on at 11pm. I had this gut feeling that she was waiting for me. We didn't talk but it felt so great knowing that. NC has started again. But now that she knows I'm not going to text her and that she would have to call or see me, I think it will be easier to carry through NC.
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