smokey bear Posted December 10, 2011 Posted December 10, 2011 I never thought this day would come, but it has The day where i would refuse a second chance. I never wanted to get to this stage but i have, where ive sickened myself trying so hard that i no longer want it. It nice to have my full power back, its nice that he no longer has control over my heart, its nice that im now the one holding all the cards because he doesnt want to let me go but doesnt want to commit either. Im cutting that string. Im making the decision there's no going back, im the dumper now, but its sad at the same time that i gave up so soon, at the time where him coming back is within my reach but i just dont want it anymore. Today right at this minute i have the opportunity to draw him back in, he's receptive to advances and im not jumping at the chance. He will have to crawl back on broken glass for me to even consider friendship at this point. He hasnt done anything hurtful or anything, it just came all on its own, i wanted to let go with love but im just letting go, not even with love, its just gone. Im going to continue my story until it comes to an end where im happy in a new relationship, im going to continue my research on Gigs as im fascinated by it and enjoying the challenge of solving the puzzle. Im actually diappointed in myself for giving up. I knew that the chance of recon was high but successful recons were low because the dumpee has moved on, i just never thought id get to that point. I done everything i could to balance between keeping the want there and keeping my head above water with grieving. Time has just done its thing. This chapter has finished, it was a sad story but the tale does have a happy ending. Its not the end of us, we were a big part of each others lifes and will become good friends, one day. The final stage...Acceptance. I hate rollercoasters, im glad this one is done. Its funny how i actually feel sad this day has come.
marqueemoon4 Posted December 10, 2011 Posted December 10, 2011 Are you going to feel the same way tomorrow or next week? If so, thats great.
wilsonx Posted December 10, 2011 Posted December 10, 2011 Are you going to feel the same way tomorrow or next week? . Dear mm4 and the rest of the guys I am going to teach you something, when a woman expresses her feelings, its always in the NOW (present tense) with a disclaimer that they are subject to change at any time for any reason. So theres no need to make comments like this A better question to ask is "Smokey, how does this make you feel now that you have found acceptance"
EgoJoe Posted December 10, 2011 Posted December 10, 2011 Smokey, you broke up with him and rebounded/left him for someone else. Whatever he does is none of your business and is the direct result of your actions. Grow up.
Author smokey bear Posted December 10, 2011 Author Posted December 10, 2011 Dear mm4 and the rest of the guys I am going to teach you something, when a woman expresses her feelings, its always in the NOW (present tense) with a disclaimer that they are subject to change at any time for any reason. So theres no need to make comments like this A better question to ask is "Smokey, how does this make you feel now that you have found acceptance" Well this morning i had just had enough, Im not factoring him into my life anymore. I actually took a day off today and just watched tv and rested rather than ploughing myself into everything to get through this. I just want/need a rest so i am. Im giving up. What you say is very true not just for woman, when anyone says how they feel, it is present tense and can change for anyone. Mid afternoon i became angrybecause my ex actually became angry at me for giving up. Which in return made me angry/frustrated. I didnt respond to his anger. If he gets angry for me giving up he needs to work that one out for himself. Its frustrating, you must feel the same Wilson to watch our ex's actions and know that they show so many signs of it not being over but they dont see/ understand whats going on with them. The signs are showing of regret, remorse, missing, considering. I think ive just burnt myself out. I honestly maybe dont know what today is all about. But i will know with time. If you dont know what to do, dont do anything, so thats it for me right now. Im just going to veg out and fill my head with lovely tv rubbish and recharge. Cheers Wilson, its appreciated xx
Author smokey bear Posted December 10, 2011 Author Posted December 10, 2011 Oh and EGOJOE!!!! We have a phrase over here i think applies to this. "DON'T POKE THE BEAR"
Author smokey bear Posted December 10, 2011 Author Posted December 10, 2011 Wilson i cant actually explain what the hell is going on today, its a first and its a ****ty experience but im certain it will be gone tomorrow My gut has completely desserted me, interacting with my ex this week, ive had no gut feelings, not one thing, i rely on my gut it guides me, where the hell has it gone? Whats happened to it, im left with just my head and logic to figure this out.
davesterr Posted December 10, 2011 Posted December 10, 2011 Smokey, you broke up with him and rebounded/left him for someone else. Whatever he does is none of your business and is the direct result of your actions. Grow up. lol nicely put.
Lis007 Posted December 10, 2011 Posted December 10, 2011 In a round a bout way now I guess you know how he felt when he was trying so hard and hoping to reconcile with you when you were with your rebound. Maybe you have been trying to hard to find formula's through all the ups and downs and love just is is...
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