Have a date tonight (in and hour) and don't want to go.

[Fitness Dude]

It's been awhile since I last wrote. So much to update but, then again, not worth trying to write out the long story that is so similar to so many on here.

 

I have a date tonight (in and hour) and I'm DREADING it! I mean, dreading it because it's not my STBXW. Not because it isn't my STBXW specifically, but just because it's someone new and I just don't feel like playing "those" first date games tonight.

 

I've had so many opportunities and I'm still stuck in felling sorry for myself and being pissed off that my marriage that I waited until I was 37 to commit to, didn't work out.

 

I'm so confused, I wouldn't even know where to start but I feel terrible that I may cancel the date. Someone give me some incite ASAP.

 

FD

[thehead]

Go on the date. Make it an opportunity to eat, enjoy some company, whatever. Share a bottle of wine with her or something to help you relax. You're not marrying the girl or even trying to establish a relationship. You're getting out into new situations after being in a crap one. So go.

[Fitness Dude]

Well, I know it wasn't the right thing to do but I cancelled with her. I simply had to, I wasn't ready for the date. I guess I'm just not "ready" yet. I know that I'll get there, but it's just NOT good right now. I'll be better soon.