Cant take any more....

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I was supposed to meet with my wife who I have been separated from for about three months now today for us to talk a bit and to basically sign the divorce papers. I have not seen the woman in the whole time we have been apart and have been pretty much no contact at all. I was actually looking forward to seeing her... even though the circumstances were as they were. Ive read a lot of posts and understand the whole part abt saving your pride and not breaking down in front of her and all that..... but how do you get the pont across that you would like another chance to show her things can be different without coming across as begging? I was able to speak a bit of my mind to her on the phone today as she was on the way to meet me.... but it turns out she had her "friend" with her who is currently trying to divorce her husband as well and has never liked me from the beginning and has always claimed I would never change to my wife and she'd be better off without me..... so my wife was reluctant to really open up and talk to me, which pissed me off bc she shouldnt of brought her friend along in the first place. So it turns out we didnt end up meeting to do the papers because they needed to be notarized and it was to late and she had to pick the kids up from day care.... so she backed out of seeing me all together. Didnt want to see me when I left three months ago either.... so needless to say Im a bit upset right now, hurt, confused and all of the above. My plan is to stop by her house tonight after the kids go to bed and see if we can get some alone time to talk. I think her friend is living there now due to her own separation so I dont know if she will see me or not bc she will be there..... but I have to talk to her about whats going on... and it has to be in person. Three years together and its come to this.... Im having real trouble accepting that it has come to this. I feel it can be fixed but I need a chance. Anyway.... I dont know what will happen but hopefully at least we will talk. I just cant take avoiding the situation anymore, its killing me! If you take the time to read this wish me luck please.... Ive prayed abt it and realize its not in my hands anymore, but it still is very hard to deal with.