SkyEmtRN Posted November 30, 2011 Posted November 30, 2011 I guess this is where my log starts. Its been officially Day 1 with NC. I started it off by calling her last night and left a voicemail. It said something along the lines of: "I know that your unsure about us but right now I think the best thing for me to do is to just take a step back and give you space for you to clear your head. I hope this space allows you to get everything straightened out and make you decide if you really want to be with us or not. I don't want you to rush into anything when your still unsure about us. I don't want you to have to live with a regret of giving up our 2 and half amazing years and even giving me up. I hope that you don't let anybody or any guy sway your decision away from me." at 12:04a that night she said "Hey, i sry missed ur call. Thank u. im not dating neone netime soon. but thank you. hope you had a good day" The morning was hard to get through. Body was shaking, couldn't focus, wanted to be around people but didn't want to talk to anybody. I checked my phone hundreds a times a minute hopeing that you would say something. But in the end I knew you wouldn't text. I wish I would see you signed on to AIM since I know I'm the only person you talk to on there. I keep having to bite my toungue so I don't break the NC I stalked facebook to find the guy you were working on a car with. Idk what your thinking but this guy isn't for you. He's a meathead all muscle no heart or brain. But hey if you want to ditch a Nursing major for an Autotechnician...be my guest. In the end your the one that's going to get hurt becuase we both know that he is not your type and vice versa. I hope that if things do happen that you'll hit rock bottom and realize what you left behind. And only then will you realize if you love me or not and see how much of a kind hearted person I am compared to him. It's almost the end of the night. With those thoughts its making it easier for me to deal with you being gone. I'm not shaking like I was this morning, I'm not angry. I just don't want you hurt by him. I hope you realize that this time I'm not givng you just 1 day of nc...this time im serious! But in the end I still love you...
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