GottaLovePink Posted November 26, 2011 Posted November 26, 2011 Hey everyone, I'm not sure where to lost this and gonna try to keep it short. My BF and I have broken up many times in the last year. He is very passionate and I do love that about him. From the beginning he was very jealous and always wondering where I was, tracking devices etc. He has some reason to be concerned about my faithfulness as we live in a small town and for over 5 years of my previous marriage I was having an affair. I told him about it and explained I didn't want that life etc. I have not been unfaithful to him but he's always bringing up my "past". We are currently broken up. This time he is not stopping by, we both changed our numbers so we cannot communicate that way (which we have done before but within a week give each other new number) he has me blocked on FB which I would think he would want me to see him happily moving on...anyway just a few more things this time as far as NC. He is a very emotional person, where's his emotions on his sleeve and I have passed him in my car a couple times and he purposely stares at me, it's just the worst most miserable puppy dog stars u can imagine. Breaks my heart. 1. I want to know what his behavior means? Is this I love u but I need to save myself? He says when we break up I never make him feel like I care, that i never follow him, call him or text him and insane amount of times. I do text maybe every three days or so. Sometimes daily. "i love u". "let's work it out". When we are together we are actually "physically" with eachother or in constant contact. Anyway he appears to want 30 calls a day etc. He says he has chased me for almost a year and it's my turn to chase him. 2. What does he want from me? It's true I'm nit a chaser of men. I do not wait by the phone. That song grenade by Bruno mars is how my BF says I am. I treat him like "easy come easy go". Couple different things this break up, he is sleeping with some girl or girls idk, I found some emails. Idt he was doing that before. He has not gone this long without speaking to me. And the painful look. I have never seen him look like he is in this much pain. And he is an ass. He's mean and degrading but I know it comes from a place of fear. He's terrified I will leave him. Hes always felt I was too good for him and acted out because of it. I love him. When I committed to him it was for better or worse and I just want to know how to handle this. We just fit. Even imagining dating another guy gags me. I cannot get him off my mind and Idk why. I'm crazy about him and Idk why. I want to leave him but I cannot seem to do it. I at least want to talk to him, counseling something. Idk what he's doing or trying to say to me? Please help. :-x 1. I want to know opinions on what
Author GottaLovePink Posted November 26, 2011 Author Posted November 26, 2011 We are 38 and 40 btw, way too old for drama games... In short I want to know with all the stuff he says about me NOT fighting for us, yet tells me to leave him alone....is he setting me up perhaps a couple things? See if I really love him and gets to insult (hurt) me by saying go away?
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