arbrne_vet Posted November 23, 2011 Posted November 23, 2011 I hereby reclaim my soul. it has been hell this past year to say the least. i have been hanging on to an illusion. last year, after i proposed to her, in one of her rants she would say "you made me". no, i did not. i translate this to "you exposed me for who i am" and she would say "you broke my heart" which translates to "you stopped giving me the proper attention i need to feed my narcissism" and lastly, "i need time" which translates to "i need to keep you around until i can find someone to replace you" God knows i have had more sleepless nights than i care to think about. i have cried more than anyone should have to cry. i gave and gave and gave, and she took and took and took, manipulated, and sucked the life right out of me. The good news is, i allowed this, which means i have put an end to it. I will smile again, i will feel the warmth of the sun in my face again, and i will love again. This is the hardest thing i have ever gone through. i can only imagine what i will be like on the other side when i come out. I have been taking care of myself. I have been working out like a mad man. in fact, if she saw me now, she probably would crap. i was always in good shape, but damn i look good now!!!! My heart is broken. i hurt bad. i will move on, i will live, i will love. Peace to all.
geegirl Posted November 24, 2011 Posted November 24, 2011 I will smile again, i will feel the warmth of the sun in my face again, and i will love again. And you will. It won't always be this way. I will attest to that. One day you will be enjoying that sun, and you'll suddenly remember that you forgot how bad things were. I promise!
BardoPond Posted November 24, 2011 Posted November 24, 2011 God speed sir. You're definately on the right track. Keep ploughing forward.
Recommended Posts