harvej Posted November 19, 2011 Posted November 19, 2011 My girlfriend 05 years just dumped me. What's worse is that I just got diagnosed with cancer And she didn't seem to care 1 bit. Her background is a little shady. She only goes after losers with no job drug attics into the used her Prior to meeting me. She comes from a very poor background andis has serious low class social skills. She had a child out of wedlock with her first boyfriend after a failed marriage, Immediately jumped into another Relationship.. That guy gave her Std. I found all this out later After I have fallen in love with her. I feel very very guilty because she cheated on me at least 3 * I know ofif I took her back each time. Everytime she did it she declared that we were broken up but I was the last to know about it. That seemed to be hirst use to wander in cheat on me. As luck or bad luck would have it I got her pregnant. I told her I would take care of the child mary her move in together for a family. I made it clear that it was her final choice. She chose to abort the baby. Flash forward to today. I had noticed that she had become distant over the last month and a half. Should not answer my calls reduced text messaging and became impatient when I came over to her house. I knew something was wrong. In the meantime I got diagnosed with stomach cancer. After telling her I did not hear from her for over a week. The last thing she ask was if I had to go to chemo. I said I might be able use a different type of radio isotope. Meanwhile I wondered why she a disappearEd. I drove up to her house 3 days ago any strange truck was there. Her truck was gone. I assumed it was 1 of her girlfriends. The next day I came over again and sane truck was there in her truck was gone again. This time I waited and she came pullin up. Her and her daughter got out of the truck along with another man. I knew this man from the passes he use to pine for her every time we had issues. Long story short she apologized said she thought we were broken up in the call me the next day. I wrote her a text to tell her I had been horrified at the prospect that she knowingly had been seen this other guy that she claims is only in the last week. The next morning I went to talk to her and she said she is not the love for me in a long time. She said we were not compatible in that this other guy that open her eyes of the prospects. I told her that I found it was rather in bad taste to abandon me your my time of need. She said she is ari been gone for a long time in her heart and was not abandoning me. Last night I found her truck parked at his house for the night. The struggle I have here is that I cannot believe it. The pain I am feeling about losing her and have my illness at the same time in knowing that she was as cold as she is has me very disappointed. I know this woman has low class in low selfesteem. Love isyou blind and now I feel extremely guilty as I should have known better. I find myself feeling very guilty , very jealous and extremely depressed. I do know that she always hit me up for money was as always was broke. I feel she is jumping into a rebound relationshipwith and I know I should forget about her. I seem to be feeling jealous hurt that I lost her , guilty that I even want her , im speechless about her less than sympathetic care for my cancer situation. In addition her parting shot was that she blamed me for the abortion and said that it was my idea and literally said that I said it would be bad for my public image. I am incredulous as this is an extreme lie. Apparently she feels guilty for having an abortion I can only assume she's crying on the shoulders of the new guy about how bad I treated her. Given my depression in my physical challenges is it best to fade.. I mean disappear in the woods if you know what I mean. Or is there any audio books or therapy I can get before it's too late and fight the good fight? I thought I was a good judge of character and alot of the above information came out only well after I fell in love with her. I don't think that I am a bad person as she says. I think that she either is low class bipolar or have such low selfesteem that she has to jump into bed with man the feel loved. She has never gone on a date that I know of that she didn't end up trying to move in with a guy. Pareap bad influence to her daughter. As I go for my treatment there is a good chance I will run across her and her new boyfriend. They both live in work the same block as the cancer treatment center. If I decide to continue at fight the fight I don't know if I can keep myself from spinning. Out of control emotionallyand once I see them happily together. What kind of girl licious what kind of guy am I? Thank you for listening.
Author harvej Posted November 19, 2011 Author Posted November 19, 2011 My apologies about the grammar and punctuation. I was using a speech recognition tool as I was very upset. Please forgive me.
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