I know it sounds shallow, but I "loved" her for the wrong thing

[forloveofgosh]

I had a summer romance with a girl who lives out of state. We broke up two months ago, and she reconfirmed her decision when we re-met a month ago. Basically, I've never gotten over her. But today I confronted myself and realized I "loved" her for her physical first before her emotion.

I'm an Asian virgin and she's white, and this is the first kind of relationship I've dated out of my race. She was the first of a lot of things, even though she's younger than I. Back when we were in the relationship, she'd invite me to come over her house in her state (and I agreed, because I'm going there to meet my friends anyway), and that left me thinking a lot about getting physical with her. Now that door has closed. I'll still be coming, and we'd be in the same house for a few days with our mutual friends. But every second I regretted the break-up. She said I was too gloomy and she had to deal with all her school work when we talked.

I know it sounds superficial, but yes, this is truly how I feel. I can't imagine her being with a different one, and her having sex with her ex (before me) because they were in a relationship for 8 months. Everything now just reminds me of her. How exactly do I get over this?

[creighton0123]

How do you get over this? Time. There really is no other alternative to heartache.

[forloveofgosh]

e wasn't my first girlfriend but my first love. Actually the first one I ever made out with. I think that's the sex I'm craving. Call me frustrated but I am. I always keep thinking she is the perfect girl because of her body. I don't know when I will be able to get a high quality girl like her, and have the same emotional connection like we did.

Talk about AFC. I can't figure how to get a girl in school, now expect myself to do cold pick-up? It's hard. I want to lose my virginity, I guess, because I'm nearly 20 and still a frustrated virgin...