layale Posted November 15, 2011 Posted November 15, 2011 My story is quite long, so please bare with me. I've dated my ex for 6 months, and we really loved each other. We changed each others lives and we were soo happy together. It was like a miracle struck us. We would text alot and call at times and we go to the same school, but we never hang out in a mall or anything like that. He's 17 and I'm 15. And we have really been soo determined about our relationship, we fought thru many problems the past 6 months. We wanted this to last till a very long time, he even was soo sure about me that he considered marriage and had told his parents of me, and they like me. It all started in the holidays, we started to detach Because he stared to cut down on the texts and I must admit, I was boyfriend centred, but I wasn't controlling. I felt that he was getting distant and I started getting worried because he didnt text me 3 days straight. And when I finally called him and kept asking him if there was anythin wrong, he assured me nothing was wrong Few days later, we had our monthly celebration of us being together, I could handle no more. His texts really changed and sounded as if he had just put me aside in his life. So I broke up with him. And rite after we broke up by texts, he explained to me that I was rite about him having personal problems. He never told me about his problems! He said that he wanted to tell me face to face. And its one thing I dislike about him is that he kept it to himself, he could have at least informed me he had a problem? I apologised and said sorry and that I would help him out because I always do but he said he wanted to do this himself this time. And that was it, about a month passed, and in this time I tried contacting, but he offed his phone and ignored me completely! In school he avoided me sooo bad and it hurt me soo much Till one day, 2 days before my birthday, he called, but I didn't pick up, I texted saying I wasnt with my phone, and he told me he called me by accident which I think is bull. On my birthday, he wished me at 12 sharp. And thats the thing that really killed me, if he ignored me soo much, avoided me, why text me first? I couldn't bare it so I wrote him a letter, explaining what went wrong in the relationship in both sides and I told him I'll eventually move on because he is doing this. His reply to it was that I was correct. We mainly broke up bcuz we werent proper friends but only lovers, and he said that "One day" he'll explain whats going on. He apologised for avoiding me cuz he said that everytime he saw me, he saw "us". And he said that I may forget him but he will never. And he said that we should just see if it was meant to be(I can't believe he believes in that), we'll be togther again and he said he loved me and really cared about me. Then I asked him what he wants with "us"? He said that he doesn't know and that for right now, he wants nothing to do with me, he said he's not ready yet. And my reaction inside me is that I will honestly wait years for him because I love him soo much and I really can never stop this love. But this is where the problem comes in. He contacted me in a few days, and we texted casually, like friends. Then all of a sudden, He brings this girl up that he's getting to know! I lost my mind! But of course I didn't show him that. Then after mentioning this girl, he said that he's been seeing that this guy has been hanging about me alot lately, he sounded jealous when he texted me that. And after that he told me how much he really cared about me. And thats the thing, if he really loves and cares about me, WHY tell me you're getting to know some gal? And it doesnt stop there, in school, he's close to like 3 gals and the way he acts is just UNBELIVABLE! When we dated he hardly ever sticked to these gals! And I totally avoid looking him, because it hurts me. I hardly ever look at him, but my friends tell me he looks at me when I'm not looking and I catch him sometimes and he quickly moves his head away I was strong in the first few weeks of the breakup, but after seeing his face everyday, and him surrounded by those girls and that "GIRL" he's getting to know (If she even exists), it just really kills me and is the main reason why I'm soo stressed out and worried. I thought he's "fixing" his problems? And I started losing myself and becoming desperate and very depressed. I texted him telling him I missed him. And I made such a fool of myself. He didn't reply to it, and I called him the other day. No pick up and no text saying anything. I feel that I lost him. I can no longer look in his face, because I feel soo ashamed, that I cant help him, I can't know how he's been. But the ONLY thing that gives me hope is that the fact, we really are determined about our future together. And I really really need some adivce, its been 2 months now, and I'm a heavy thinker, I think alot that it depresses me sometimes. Thank you for holding on till the end of this problem.
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