bamaguy20 Posted May 23, 2004 Posted May 23, 2004 Im sure some of you have heard my rants on here about my girlfriend..but the more i think about it and talk to people mabye i wanst really in love with her, even though i feel so deeply in love with her right now...what got me thinking that is this......wed been hooking up for about 6 months, although we were both "allowed" to be with other people..she wasnt with anyone however, i was...she really was in love with me then.....then we started having sex for about 6 months, still allowed to be with other people.....i felt a little closer to her, but not IN LOVE like i am now....she had sex with two other guys during this six month period..because we were in a bit of a fight at the time, and i think it was supposed to make me jealous, which it did a little, but still not dating...then she transfered to my school where we started dating and were commited to each other...now......back then i liked her a lot..mabye even loved her i dont know..but when we were dating the thought of her with a nother guy wouldnt bother me, i wouldnt care who she was with or any of that...it wasnt until she finally broke up with me (no matter what she says, i know its because of a couple new friends, aquaintances of mine that she made last semester...shes very weak minded and relies on these people like she used to one me, but anyways..) that i couldnt get her out of my mind, would cry over her, couldnt eat or sleep..things i never did before..so i ask you all this....is that really love? i know people say you dont know what you have until you lose it, but still..if i was that deeply in love with her wouldnt i always feel like that...and not just when she leaves me? Right this second, i feel like i have been deeply in love with her for the past several months..only up until recently is it starting to fade, but slowly, bc im trying to do everything i can to get over her...but its still painful.......but really....mabye the only reason im going through this pain is because im not with her and cant stop her from hooking up with other guys and blowing me off to go hang out with these two people who are real bad news....i dont konw what do you all think?
moimeme Posted May 23, 2004 Posted May 23, 2004 Well, sometimes it does happen that a person does not genuinely realize what he has until he's lost it. You can get too spoiled by having a good thing and then think that there are plenty others out there as good or better. It's only when the person's gone and you start doing some real 'comparison shopping' that you may realize how wrong you were.
johan Posted May 23, 2004 Posted May 23, 2004 I know how you feel. I remember how really gorgeous my girlfriends seemed to get after we broke up. I'm talking about the ones I didn't feel deep love for while we were together. Their independence from me was actually very attractive. It was kind of what I was wanting from them all along. They didn't have to completely leave. They could have just been more assertive. It's scary to think how a girl you don't really love can just move on. What if you really did love her? How much more would that hurt?
Author bamaguy20 Posted May 24, 2004 Author Posted May 24, 2004 nah im not saying i dont love her......i mean either way she was my best friend..and this is the most painful thing ever, but i dunno....mabye i do love her did love her or never loved her at all..the good thing is..whatever it was..im finally starting to not feel so bad...although the pain is definatly still there every now and then...
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