more Posted November 14, 2011 Posted November 14, 2011 (edited) ^ On top of that, we had been broken up for less than a week before we got back together. Before I tell you what happened, I'm supposed to be leaving USA in 8 months and I'll be away for 21 months. Knowing the risks, my ex and I dove into the relationship. It was a fantastic time (17 months). Then I started to become insecure about things. I became jealous of her guy friends that lived across the hall. Small things like that built up to the point where she told me she couldn't take it anymore. She said she wanted to tell the things that bothered her, but she was afraid that I would slip away... But she let it build up to the point where she didn't want to be with me anymore. I'm going to be honest. I asked for a second chance. She denied it. I asked again, she denied. So I gave up and tried to move on. About 5 days after the break-up, she called me while she was "drunk" (not really). She told me that she really missed me and wants to give it another go. I told her that it was a bad idea, but because she asked me to, I waited for her to sober up the next morning. She told me that she still wanted to give it another try, and so we got back together (I tried very hard not to for couple hours, but she seemed so sure that she wanted to date me again). The next day, we went to a dinner and saw a movie (I know, too fast). Then for Veteran's Day weekend we went back home together. Everything seemed fine... until the drive back to school. I knew that something was wrong from her face. So I asked her when we got back... to see if she really wanted to be with me. She said she was confused and told me that it wasn't working for her. She also told me that her feelings had changed BEFORE we left to go back home for Vet's Day weekend... I was heartbroken. I didn't show any emotion when I talked to her. I agreed with her and respected her decision. I still miss her after being dumped two times. I tell you this, but I act like everything is fine. Smiling, laughing, and etc... She doesn't have a clue. She tells me that I didn't do anything wrong, but I know I did. I know better than to make same mistakes again. Was she not ready to wait 21 months while I was away? Would letters and skype not have been enough for her to feel like she can be with me? I know the typical response you would be thinking is that, you're only 19, you guys have been dating for only 17 months, and etc. But please, I know those things and I just want other people's opinion on why her feelings changed so quickly when I did nothing wrong after we got back together. Edited November 14, 2011 by more
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