confusedgrl Posted May 23, 2004 Posted May 23, 2004 Hey everyone. I just needed to talk I guess. Tonight I feel sad. I miss him, but I can never be with him and it sucks. He doesn't love me anymore, and I don't know. I thought I was over him, but tonight I miss him. I wonder if he misses me at all, but I know he doesn't. I guess it bothers me that he still talks to my friends, but he won't talk to me. What hurts most is that I lost him as a friend. Whenever someone talks about him my heart stops. I just wish I could get this over with.
bamaguy20 Posted May 23, 2004 Posted May 23, 2004 Im not really one to talk, as I still miss my ex girflriend like crazy...and my heart goes into my stomach when i think about her with another guy, or never seeing her again, etc....but really when i think about it, the way i feel today about things is better than the way i felt 2 months ago.....every day gets better...somedays you may feel like your going backwards...but thats all part of the process..or so i'm told....i feel right now that the only thing i want in the world, is to get this knot out of my stomach and completly forget about her all together..i dont want to ever think about her again...but i supose it just takes that time
confusedgrl Posted May 23, 2004 Posted May 23, 2004 Funny thing is that I think i'm over it. I feel happy...but sometimes the sadness just creeps in. I want to get to that point where it doesn't anymore. I tried dating other people, but I end up hurting them instead because I can't give it my all. So I just decided to take some time for myself, and figure out how to get out of this mess. It is hard for me to trust someone since he broke my trust. I know I will have to come over this though, and I think I can. The hurting is less now after 4months. Maybe it was time for him to go, I was his first gf. I know that we are young and that he needs to explore life and such... but I wish he didn't betray me as a friend. He still talks to my other friends ( the ones he met through me) and this bothers me. They asked me if they could still talk to him and I agreed. But i don't know.. it just hurts for some reason.
confusedgrl Posted May 23, 2004 Posted May 23, 2004 I hope you do get it out of your stomach. I hope things get better for you, and I'm sure in time it will. I just wish time would hurry up or something. I wish i could fastforward 2 years .
bamaguy20 Posted May 23, 2004 Posted May 23, 2004 Sounds similar to me....together for a good while...then broke up and then off an on for short periods at a time for 3 months..mostly off though.....its been 3 months for me..sounds like 4 months for you, it seems we are both more or less at the same point....i do feel better but every now and then sadness creeps in....or i think about her with a nother guy and that kills me....i think talking about it with friends or even places like this helps....i dont know about you, but after hearing what people say and responding like i am right here, i feel better...i dont feel so alone...I just wish this board would become a little more active......a lot like you were saying too..i lost her as a friend..we were friends way before we ever dated...and we were best friends..and now all thats been lost due to her bad decision making and mabye my trying to push the relationship and do what was best for her even when she didnt want to do what was best for herself....but in any case...thats in the past....i just need to find a way to overcome these feelings....i would love to know how long this is going to take...
confusedgrl Posted May 24, 2004 Posted May 24, 2004 We sound like we are in very similar situations. We were friends long before we dated, and after the break up he just stopped wanting to be friends too. I know that he needed time , but he ignored me all together. He won't respond to my instant messages, he won't answer my phone calls, and if he knows i'm going to be somewhere he doesn't show up. This bothers me because he never gave me any closure. I know I shouldn't care, and I know I should just stop talking to him. I have stopped calling him and all of that. I just wonder what happend to " I'll always be there for you". Makes me not believe in words anymore. I wish I knew how long it would take as well. But the pain is less as time goes by, and I hope that is the same for you.
bamaguy20 Posted May 24, 2004 Posted May 24, 2004 my screen name is paley001...send me a message sometime...id love to talk with you, as you seem to really understand what im going through
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