Makavelli Posted November 7, 2011 Posted November 7, 2011 Please someone take the time to give me some advice, I don't want to hear find someone else because I really want to get my GF back I love her dearly Ill give some insight on what's going on. Basically My GF of 4 years broke up with me over a txt message exactly 3 weeks ago..... I have sent letters, no responses.... I was paying for her cell phone and the monthly payment so she had someone give me the phone back. I gave it to her brother to use... it was paid off for a year and I thought this would leave a line of communication open. I don't understand why she won't talk to me or even respond to my letters, I have done nothing but great things for her,yeah there were arguments at times, some stuff I did annoyed her but I already fixed all of that. Im going to the gym every single day, on a no carb diet, and all I do is work. I try to ignore this stuff but it is incredibly difficult. I went to Nordstrom today and somehow walking around North Park Mall I get this smell of perfume she used to wear, I had to fight from crying in the middle of the mall. I just don't know what I did and why she broke up. It was out of no where, the 2 weeks before she seemed kind of distant though not very talkative and wouldn't reply I love you. Right before that it was I love you all the time and everything else. She moved 80 miles from me, lost her car due to some family issues, doesn't have a job, and isn't happy with her life atm... I got real busy the last month because I was moving to and there was alot of stuff going on so I didn't see her for like a month.... I feel like crap now I know I could of preveneted this. I think I would rather loose a limb than to loose her because I really do love her that much. I moved from Missouri to Texas to be with her... My father met a female around the same time I did, I gave him the ok to move to Japan because that's what he wanted and he did, I moved to Texas. I have no one else here and I have no other family in Missouri.... I have nobody, not even really any friends here.... Im miserable and I feel depersonalization at times. Sometimes I get positive feelings but mostly negatives, its like a roller coaster, im wondering if she even read the letters... if she misses me an ounce... so many things run through my mind. On another note me and her dad are real close and im going over to their house on Thinksgiving..... Im kind of nervous because she refuses to see me but I want to be like a different person when I get over there. Im 6 ft 1, Caucasian, Green eyes. I would of lost 35 pounds by time Thinksgiving hits ive lost 21 already.. She likes vintage stuff so Im trying to find like a vintage outfit. Her favorite color is emerald so im getting fitted with natural emerald contacts, and deciding if I should wear the watch she bought me or get a different one. My theory is not to show up looking like how I used to in the past... I want a different look to try and re attract her somewhat. Im fighting for this girl because I love her, I don't care how many people laugh at me, I love this girl and want to make her happy... I know it had to do with me complaining to much is what her brother told me, because so much was going on... I need help damnit. lol
citrusdrop1688 Posted November 9, 2011 Posted November 9, 2011 Hey. All I can say is that if your sure you want to go through with that you need to leave your eye color alone, dont wear what you think she wants you to, dont wear the watch she gave you. Because if you do that **** all its going to say is that your still being obsessive and desperate and thats going to push her away more then anything. Look your best, in your style, and dont do anything to show how screwed up you are about the situation.
penshelly Posted November 10, 2011 Posted November 10, 2011 If you really love her you may find way to win her back, Or maybe your not making steps, your just counting your excuses because of your ego! am I right?
Author Makavelli Posted November 10, 2011 Author Posted November 10, 2011 No it has nothing to do with excuses or Ego. I truly love this girl, my life since than has put me into a feeling of depersonalization. Nothing excites me at all. I simply go to work, go work out, go home and research any possible way to help my chances on getting her back. As far as changing my eye color, appearance and all that stuff, I'm doing it so she doesn't see how hurt I am next time I see her. If she sees me all hurt and depressed its probably unattractive. I want to be a different sight in her eyes, yeah the same me but touched up, it's a psychological thing I just want to better my appearance basically hands down. I am very tired atm if half of this post does not make any sense at all, I have been out of it and overworking myself purposely so I don't have to think about how hurt I am. I pray, I hope, and I hear nothing.... that's the part that bothers me the most to... is I sent letters, and I hear nothing in response not even a negative response.
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