sweet honey eyes Posted November 6, 2011 Posted November 6, 2011 This last summer, I posted here that after 18 months of a committed relationship, he decided to go on vacations overseas with his son and leave me behind. I loved him, so I took him back. He did not have a job or a place to stay. He moved in with me.. But things became worse than ever before: no remorse, possesive, controlling... even agressive.. Last Sunday, I decided to tell him to move out and get out of my live forever... I know I did the right thing... but it's still hurts.. I know at one time he loved me, and I loved him too. I am NC since last Sunday.. and it wil be so for the rest of my life.. I know I am doing the right thing.. It had become a toxic relationship... Why am I hurting, I wonder? Am I a masochist or what???
happypanda21 Posted November 7, 2011 Posted November 7, 2011 Your heart and head sound like they are in agreement now. You head knows that its a toxic relationship. You heart may understand it, but sometimes it chooses the harder of the 2 paths, staying with a person who you know will hurt you. I just read all of your posts. I know you have been going through a tough time for a very long time. You do not deserve the pain he has put you through. Period. Do not talk to him, do not message him. If he does the same to you, dont reply back. He is not good for you. I understand you love him, but this is a one way street. Actions speak louder than words, and his actions scream that he does not think much about you. You are hurting because of this. You are not a masochist either. Your scared and feel alone. Please try to understand that many of us feel this way. We are looking for a path away from this hurt of our soul. The only way to walk down this path is one step at a time, no matter how big or small step that is.
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