hustlerose Posted November 4, 2011 Posted November 4, 2011 so my ex had gotten into contact with me after a month of NC this week. i got my hopes really up, thinking that he missed me and realized he made a mistake. he started calling me by our old pet names for eachother but i didn't show any interest at first. he got my birthday wrong, he was a day early and my bday was also our anniversery (shows how much he cared... should have been my first clue). he was kind of rude about it when i told him he had messed the days up, so after that i figured i might aswell call him out on whatever crap he was trying to pull with me. i asked him why he had gotten into contact with me, he said "it's your birthday, i thought it would be a nice thing to do but i guess i won't then." i wasn't being confrontational about it, just curious. after he started being rude about it, i pretty much laid everything down on the table. i told him not to contact me. that it just messes with my head. if he had no intention of us starting over then there was no point in us talking because i can't be just friends with him. i told him i was getting to a place of moving on and hearing from him is just too hard on me. he said "ok sorry". i said it's fine i just don't see the point in us talking. he he knows how i feel and i'm not getting my hopes up again. that was the last time we talked. yesterday was rough, but i don't regret anything i said. i couldn't have gone through a month of pretending to not be interested so he would chase after me, to only find out down the road he was just making sure i still had feelings for him and leave me again. his reaction also proves that he wasn't interested in rekindling anything, just to mess with my head for a boost to his ego. i feel like maybe this is the closure i needed. i have no hope for him or us anymore and it's clear i need to move on. it just hurts because i don't know why he would even do that to me when he knows how much i love him. what was the point of talking to me again and when i show the faintest sign of interest he starts being an ******* to me again?? i'm just glad i didn't let it go on for a month and then be really crushed.
betterdeal Posted November 4, 2011 Posted November 4, 2011 A month feels like a long time, but it is but a whisper in a lifetime. It will take a long time before you feel settled as opposed to upset. You're completely right to have said what you thought and felt, otherwise you'd be living a lie. Have a read of the guide I wrote (linked in my signature) and take very good care of yourself. Eat well, sleep well, exercise and treat yourself.
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