mavfan Posted November 4, 2011 Posted November 4, 2011 I have had this girl on my mind for years though it was never a physical relationship. I thought at the very least we were good friends. To make a long story short I felt betrayed and used. Everytime she would start to get really close like something would happen. She would be just down right mean to me. After a series of dissapointments I decided to end this relationship. It wouldnt be so bad except for the fact many years ago she she left a scar on my left eye. She was probablly on something ... I knelt down to tie my shoe lace in front of her when I noticed a bruise on her inner thigh. She basically swung her arm really fast and her nail ran accross my eye. Curled up in a ball in pain I asked her why did you do that? She replied my hand slip...I didnt even know you were there." She just stood there watching me in pain as if I was a fish that was dumped out of his fishbowl. She didn't say I am sorry She said it was an accident and I gave her the benefit of the doubt becuase I did really love her even though it was not a physical relationship. She has been seeing different guys over the years then one day I decided I had enough I just went cold turkey and didnt have contact with her, her friends or family I even moved away. I was her friend even after this incedent for years, I was there for her. My vision was forever altered by that one act and until recently I figured out what I was really pissed off about. "I can name a hundred things she did to hurt me but what hurt most of all was the knowledge that her and I can never be." When that moment of truth came to me it was if a weight was lifted off my shoulders..." I started flirting with girls again and looking forward to the rests of my life.
betterdeal Posted November 4, 2011 Posted November 4, 2011 Hey, good for you, buddy! It's a massive relief to get that kind of monkey off your back, isn't it? So ... are there any other girls you've taken a fancy to lately?
Author mavfan Posted November 5, 2011 Author Posted November 5, 2011 Nothing yet ... but flirting is defenitely fun ,,, it is liberating to let go of all that negativity, ocassionally I have an emotional flashback so still working on it. Great to feel optimistic. Pragmatically speaking I dont think I will ever forget her I still get optical pains whenever I feel anxious due to a fine scar tissue on the lens of my eye. The scar tissue reshaped the lens affecting my vision Otherwise than that I have to learn to lear to forgive her.
Author mavfan Posted November 5, 2011 Author Posted November 5, 2011 Thanks better link... that link was helpfull I appreciate it. I am glad to find this website it feels theraputic. Mavfan
betterdeal Posted November 5, 2011 Posted November 5, 2011 You're welcome. It's good to be able to share and get it off your chest, isn't it?
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