maryslamb Posted November 3, 2011 Posted November 3, 2011 My bf and I have been together for a few years and living together for the past year. The last month or so things have started to change. I'm not sure if we just needed a break from each other for a while, or just the lack of communication. You see, everytime we got in an argument , it never got reconciled. The would blow up, reverse the conflict on me and manipulate the situation to say its my fault. Then the next day or so , he would do something funny , and we are ok again. Well now, we are broken up, I've moved out. Moved to a amily members house. He took my car. And I just ffel pathetic. I've been through a break up with him before, but this time we have gotten a whole lot closer and it hurts. Its been 2 days , and I feel like I just want to end it all. I've looked up web sites on how to just go through with it. I've talked to friends and family, and at that moment I'm fine. But then when we hang up, I'm stuck with the pain again. I hate thinking about if he's with someone and why its not me. My motivation is to keep finding an apartment, or get hired on one of the cruiselines, that I've always wanted to do. I'm just stuck. Ill lay and cry, and then decide I just need to stop the pain and contemplate on how ill end it. I've never had any history with drugs, or mental issues. I'm just heart broken..
Sprig Posted November 3, 2011 Posted November 3, 2011 I understand how you feel, the hurt just doesn't seem to stop does it? Ending it all seems to be the only answer, but it really isn't. Accept that your going to feel like &^% for the next little while. but little by little you will start to feel better. It's a process and don't get mad at yourself for crying and letting it all out. There is nothing wrong with having a good cry.
Author maryslamb Posted November 3, 2011 Author Posted November 3, 2011 Thank you for your kind words.. I woke up this morning feeling like ****. I called off work so avoid seeing people. I've spoke to a few friends and is starting to feel a little better.. I just have to stop thinking about what he may be doing, and who he's doing it with..
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