Marianis Posted November 3, 2011 Posted November 3, 2011 i was chating with a friend and he told me this : you are just too caught up in the past and won't forget about it well i do have feelings.. i can not just forget because my ex ment everything to me... how can i just pretent i dont care that he is with someone else.. and sharing things we could not share ever .. because we never get the chance to be together for more than 3 moths ... i just think in that somepoint he could say "i love you" to that girl.. and touch her the way he touched me .. and maybe love her more than he loved me.. and i try really hard to forget and move on .. but its just super hard.. i thought he was the one .. and now all that is gone and its like it didnt even exited.. like it was just a dream and in my head.. like im somehow inventing little dreams of us in my head all day .. and then i open my eyes and find a reality really different .. im going crazy and its been almost 5 moths of NC... what the hell.... i dont even care about my last month of university and sometimes i just feel hopeless.. i just want to scape but i cant ..
wilsonx Posted November 3, 2011 Posted November 3, 2011 Im going to tell you this... One day, you are going to wake up, and you arent going to care anymore, its going to be like a light swtich
Author Marianis Posted November 3, 2011 Author Posted November 3, 2011 Im going to tell you this... One day, you are going to wake up, and you arent going to care anymore, its going to be like a light swtich its been too long and i am still like this.. my parents even bought a movie for me called .. "500 days with summer" ... they know my feelings havent change... and the funny thing is that he hasnt contact me at all.. i know nothing about him anymore!! .... nothing .. thats why i feel like he never existed..
wilsonx Posted November 3, 2011 Posted November 3, 2011 consider yourself lucky, its so much better then the **** ive been going through
leoc1973 Posted November 3, 2011 Posted November 3, 2011 yes wilson is right. Mine and wilsons exes play some serious head games and keep in contact. Consider yourself lucky! And you will wake up one day and like he said like a switch you will be pushed too far and almost not care at all.
Author Marianis Posted November 3, 2011 Author Posted November 3, 2011 ya we are in oposite sites .. he doesnt even care to talk to me.. and she is just going crazy on you.. :S whyyyy .. i dont know where i rather be.. :S ... someday i think the cards will turn and everythign will be different! ... because right now i guess.. i would be like your exgf.. i guess not that crazy .. but a little cause i still feel gulty and wait for something that tells me he cares.. :S buuuu
Rorschach64 Posted November 3, 2011 Posted November 3, 2011 Marianis, I know how you feel about not hearing a peep from your ex for awhile, while you see other people's ex's on here still messaging them. As you can see it isn't something we should desire, but we only desire it because we think "Why aren't isn't he/she contacting me? Do they even think about me? Do I even matter, hell did I ever matter to them?" Who cares anymore, you gotta look out for yourself right now and no one else. If the ex does ever come back, still look out for yourself and if you want him back even at that time make sure it is on your terms not his.
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