Bobby289 Posted October 28, 2011 Posted October 28, 2011 One day I feel amazing, the next like $#it and dont even want to leave my bed... This weekend is going to be a long one. I have plans most of the weekend but its hard not to think of this time last year when everything was amazing, I can't go out and party because it just makes it even harder on me. Being hit on just makes me think of how I can't even think about someone else right now. Ugh I try not to think about what she is doing and everything but I can't just turn that off after so long of talking about our days every night, I WISH THERE WAS A SWITCH! I promised myself not to reach out again after being ignored and to just let it be, she is stressed out with a lot of other things in her life too aside from me but I am not a *******. I still want to be there for her while she is going though a hard time. I am aware of my faults and have been working on myself everyday but I can't seem to stay happy for a full day. I know I will hear from her in a week or two as thats how it seems to go when I go NC but I just feel down again, as sad is it sounds I would even like a drunk text just to ignore... I hate emotions sometimes. End rant.
headsashed Posted October 28, 2011 Posted October 28, 2011 chin up pal,im having a crappy weekend too and it will be a long 1,and ive got plans for tomorrow,i know how u feel about the 1 day ur ok and the next your not because im the same. The only difference is my ex still texts me,i just had a random txt saying shes getting drunk,good for her, its my bday and im stone cold sobar but oh well,atleast being sobar means im less tempted to txt her back
Author Bobby289 Posted October 28, 2011 Author Posted October 28, 2011 Well happy b-day, you should have asked for her to leave you alone for your bday gift lol. Yeah thats good though, drinking when I'm like this will not end well for anybody. Why can't people just say what they intend
evoless Posted October 29, 2011 Posted October 29, 2011 I'm really sorry Bobby, I accidentally found this forum as I'm feeling exactly the same way and I'm wondering will it ever change... I found a lot of people felt and are feeling the way we do... I realized that's life and what most of people go throught as being human. I wish you good luck, cheers!
gbadboy Posted October 29, 2011 Posted October 29, 2011 Hey dude....is there a reason why she is ignoring u? Maybe u hurt her real bad and thus her ignorance is justified? You replied to a thread of mine,and yes while my ex and I talk and text and often asks about my family, helps me job search etc.....this all didnt happen overnight. We broke up in July and for 2 months he hated me! Ignored me, wouldnt reply to my txts, would ignore me in public as we have some mutual friends..etc. as much as it hurt, I realized he is avoiding me cuz I walkes all over his heart and his anger is justified. But now he wants to be friends, despite the pain I caused him. He doesnt yell and scream anymore. You see, I had to allow him time to be angry with me, I allowed him to yell at me bc he had every right too. And once it came all out, we began being close as friends. now..he texts me to wish my dad a happy bday....big change.......... So my point is, maybe give ur ex some time to come around....if u were good to her in the relationship, one day she will reach a low point and she will remember and miss u...
Author Bobby289 Posted October 29, 2011 Author Posted October 29, 2011 Hey dude....is there a reason why she is ignoring u? Maybe u hurt her real bad and thus her ignorance is justified? You replied to a thread of mine,and yes while my ex and I talk and text and often asks about my family, helps me job search etc.....this all didnt happen overnight. We broke up in July and for 2 months he hated me! Ignored me, wouldnt reply to my txts, would ignore me in public as we have some mutual friends..etc. as much as it hurt, I realized he is avoiding me cuz I walkes all over his heart and his anger is justified. But now he wants to be friends, despite the pain I caused him. He doesnt yell and scream anymore. You see, I had to allow him time to be angry with me, I allowed him to yell at me bc he had every right too. And once it came all out, we began being close as friends. now..he texts me to wish my dad a happy bday....big change.......... So my point is, maybe give ur ex some time to come around....if u were good to her in the relationship, one day she will reach a low point and she will remember and miss u... Thanks, that actually helps a lot. Even though I was faithful and always there for her I did hurt her with my insecurities. He anger is justified and I can't expect that she going to forgive me just because I have been going to therapy and working on it. She has to forgive me herself and I can't rush that as much as I miss her.
BLuvv Posted October 29, 2011 Posted October 29, 2011 Hey Bobby, Sorry you're feeling down. I'm feeling depressed as hell tonight and wishing my ex would just reach out to me. It sucks. Hope you feel better! B
gbadboy Posted October 29, 2011 Posted October 29, 2011 You are just anxious, thats normal. Even though u hurt her, im sure u did a lot of good and its those things she will remember once she hits a low point....she will wonder, my god where is?havent heard from him in ages! She will be in touch in time....
Author Bobby289 Posted October 29, 2011 Author Posted October 29, 2011 Yeah gbadboy I hope so, rushing it won't fix anything. Thanks everyone. Sorry to hear BLuvv, one day at a time I guess
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