jb14 Posted October 27, 2011 Posted October 27, 2011 3 years ago when I was 15 I fell in love with my ex. He was 17 at the time. He had his flaws but besides those he was the perfect fit for me. (in my mind he still is). I belonged to a church where his uncle is the main pastor and their rules are you can't be dating. Ridiculous I know. But we still flirted and just to ourselves we were a couple. Of course we never held hands or kissed during that time but one night, after 7 months of dating, I snuck him in my house and because of all the bottled up love and passion we made love. A month later my parents found out because I wrote him a letter but left it in my pocket. Stupid I know. So we were forbidden to even be in the same room together for 9 months. We didn't speak. But at times we sent notes to each other. We fought for what we wanted. Finally after 9 months we got to finally talk to each other. 2 months later they send me and my family to another state so they could be pastors of that state. I know they did it to separate us. after a year and a half we left the church and moved back to Jersey. During that time I texted him, called him, we talked and loved each other. I remained faithful never cheated and I know he never cheated on me. To me it was true love. So when we came back We spent 3 beautiful months together. On September 14, 2011 of this year we celebrated our 3 years together. But a month and 2 days later I find out his family is talking bad about the church my family made so I sent his cousin a message through Facebook . Let me add here that his family including his cousin made our lives a living HELL. They humiliated us treated us bad. Everything. So when he sent me a text saying "How could you write something like that?!" My message to his cousin wasn't even that bad. I just told her to leave us alone and I brought up that she was with a married guy (by the way she's my age). So I was angry and felt betrayed so I said "Tell your family Congradualtions that they got what they wanted. We're done." After that he didn't send me another text. The next day I sent him one. He told me he is sorry it ended this way but we're done. it hurts. it hurts him to think about me. I said I was sorry that I didn't mean it. I kept texting him till the next day and he told me to not text or call him anymore. So I stopped for 2 days and then i sent him a text asking if he is ready to talk. he said he isn't he's hurt and time is helping. he has future set and that he loves me but its over. I want to know if thats true. It's killing. Is he saying what he really feels or what? Aftera week and a half he talks to me but says he loves me and he can't get over me but he's going to try. he's still hurt cause we talk like friends but sometimes he says good bye cause it hurts. What should I do?
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