Marianis Posted October 26, 2011 Posted October 26, 2011 Its like 5am and i just had a terrible nightmare.. i felt the need to write it in here.. In it I was talking to my ex on the phone.. he was just telling me how happy he is with the new girl.. how everything is great in his life and that I should move on…. After 4 months of NC and maybe 8 of our break up I still sad and I try to be better in every way … I miss him a lot and I still think about him … I know he is super happy with the other girl and I am really scared of someone hurting me again. I can not open myself to anyone I don’t actually know already and I feel im not good enough and that eventually they will know and leave me like he did.. I mean …. Like 4 months ago he had a chance to chose who he wanted to be with.. he chose her… and i gave him everything ... i gave him all i had and he left me anyway. Im sick of feeling this way and look he hauntin me even in my sleep .. dont know what to do.
immitable Posted October 26, 2011 Posted October 26, 2011 Let him be, it is normal to feel that way. The fact is that you didn't go NC right after the breakup but waited for 4 months, he is going to need ime to really miss you. Try going out if you can and meeting new people, I did the same slowly, for me it has been 5 months since she broke up with me, and it starts slowly to feel good being single, weird I know. keep your head high, things are going to work out for you.
thatone Posted October 26, 2011 Posted October 26, 2011 (edited) here, this will lighten the mood...this was my last nightmare . my last memorable nightmare was the stereotypical "chased by an axe murderer" type nightmare. there was an ex, family, and friends present, all in the house i grew up in when i was a kid. now, your typical nightmare axe murder is a lumbering buffoon, and this one fit the bill. walking around about 1 mile an hour and can't seem to operate doors or windows to get into the house, but you can hear him dragging his axe behind him outside so we know exactly where he is. he isn't very good at this. all we have to do is misdirect him a bit, and leave. well, that's where it all goes wrong.... a) a friend has guns, but the bullets for the guns were all the wrong size. this was a hoarder friend of mine who can't get anything he needs out of his shop because he has so much worthless stuff in there. so we spend 5 minutes sorting through bullets that don't fit in the guns we have. b) then there's my mother, who given the opportunity to solve a problem in a given situation will ALWAYS choose the one path that doesn't solve anything. she had a knife for some reason, the lumbering idiot axe murderer was taking about 30 seconds getting his way through a window in the room with the guns, and my mother runs up to him with the knife, then rather than simply stabbing him in the throat goes into a lecture to him about how terrible a person he's being. i shake my head and walk away. c) as i'm heading toward the garage (where there are CARS to simply drive away in), there's an ex who won't go. she's standing there looking at me, but won't move. lumbering clumsy axe murderer is making his way through the door behind her and she still won't move, just standing there staring at me. i point over her shoulder and said "look, it's TIME TO GO". she starts crying but still doesn't move. i shake my head, "whatever" and go on ahead with my brother and his wife. d) we get to the kitchen and there is one set of car keys, brother grabs them, the three of us make our way out to the driveway. there are multiple cars there, but the keys are to a jeep with ONE SEAT IN IT. my brother is one of these people who buys new cars every 6 months and always ends up with one he doesn't like. so i'm thinking what the f*ck? why did you buy a car with one seat in it. we try to get in and get going, and we can't all three get situated in this stupid vehicle with one seat in it. at that point i just start walking. i look over my shoulder and wave at my brother and his wife stumbling over each other in the car with one seat trying to get situated and yell "good luck!" as i casually walk down the street. i was startled awake not by fear or impending doom or any other such feeling, but by the very clear thought that "i'm surrounded by idiots". Edited October 26, 2011 by thatone
TheDovic Posted October 26, 2011 Posted October 26, 2011 Wow, this sucks M. I'll speak to you about it in more detail here cos you're my wee buddy
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