blackwidow290 Posted October 25, 2011 Posted October 25, 2011 (edited) I'm a university student in a demanding program. I have a year and a half to finish and I'm working very hard to carve a place out for myself. On the personal side of things, I've been in a serious relationship for over a year. A part of me has always screamed that I should let go of the relationship, but I've been reluctant. I can't seem to find the reason why I want to stay, why I want to go, maybe I'm afraid. I've been stuck in this indecision since the beginning. The bad has never outweighed the good, or vice versa... except when we are together and I'm not analyzing things to death. I'm just afraid that I'm not valuing the relationship for the good it brings, a devoted and loving boyfriend. When I've tried discussing this, he has told me to make a decision NOW, as otherwise I'm playing with his feelings. He is very serious about the relationship, marriage-minded. I see my boyfriend once a week, but a part of me feels that the relationship is holding me back. Even if my boyfriend just aims to be supportive. He never went to college, which I do not mind. My biggest problem is that he's in his 30s, lives at home (not an issue in itself), and despite working full-time, all these years he hasn't saved anything. I don't understand how a person can just blow money on inessentials and keep themselves behind. He doesn't contribute to the household. I feel torn. Is love really not enough? I constantly tell myself that even if another person had the financial smarts down, I've met few people who are emotionally there for me like my current boyfriend. I don't know if the way I'm valuing my boyfriend is just distorted by how much stress I have at this point in my life and how hard I work and how focused I am. I have a problem with my boyfriend saying that he has accomplished all the goals that he had already. He's in his early 30s! Isn't that when it all really begins? I feel bad because he has picked up on these thoughts that I have, as I pick fights, and he seems to be getting unhappy about his life situation (when it wasn't the case before as far as I'm aware). Overall, we are very much in love, but I feel that I should grow up? reality? and be a bit more selfish. He's emotionally mature, but bad with money... if this last statement doesn't contradict itself. Edited October 25, 2011 by blackwidow290
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