staringspace Posted October 22, 2011 Posted October 22, 2011 My boyfriend and I (of 3 years) split up a week ago now, and while this week hasn't been as hard as I thought it would be, now I'm in the house on my own I'm feeling rather lonely and I miss him a lot. We were long distance for a year and a bit (university) after meeting in sixth form (high school) and he was there through most of my transition to becoming a woman, and opened me up to many new things - stuff I wouldn't have done in the past for sure. He also helped me through so much in my personal life and my mum dying - he was amazing for that time. However, we both knew things weren't working out - even if we didn't admit it to each other for a very long time. Even though we were both upset, we knew the best option was to split up and try and salvage things; rather than getting to the stage where we both hated each other (I could never deal with that). As far as break-ups go, it was left on pretty good terms and I know he cares about me; he said that he couldn't bear to just let me disappear, and that he doesn't want me to walk out on his life for good. He sounded just as scared as me about whether he'd find anyone else and whether he'd just be alone, and that he wanted to keep me close incase he had made a big mistake. After 6 days (probably what feels like the longest 6 days ever) I'm finding it hard not to think about him and what he's thinking about what happened to us. I miss the special things we had and if there's any way I can salvage that in a friendship I will - as I said before, there's no way I can not have him in my life, as he meant so much to me. I think he feels the same too - I don't think he would have asked me to promise that I wouldn't just disappear if he wasn't sincere about it. I've kept myself busy and that's helped, I just don't know what to do with myself as he seems to be opening himself up to many new things whereas I'm finding it hard to. We haven't talked since the break up, but I want to get in contact with him at the right time - without it being too soon or too late. I miss his voice so very much, and I am struggling to know what to do with myself. Advice? Any would be appreciated.
SWAN808 Posted October 22, 2011 Posted October 22, 2011 all I can say is Im in the same place so I feel your pain...its just been a week and we broke up on good terms. I cant be on my own too much at the mo... Im sure things will get better...
Doona Posted October 22, 2011 Posted October 22, 2011 I know exactly what you are going through as I am going through the exact same thing. Its so hard, words cant even explain. I have been taking some tablets for my anxiety, running every day and just trying to keep busy. I just keep hoping that this pain will go away eventually and everything works out for the best.
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