looktothelight Posted October 22, 2011 Posted October 22, 2011 Well turns out he still has the same girlfriend and I now understand that I can’t get in the way of true love. I will soon be 20, they will soon be 19. I also have a boyfriend, one year anniversary this November, and we are every bit as serious as them. It started with being obsessed with him, and when we were in contact he would send me naked pictures of her, knowing I am bisexual and said he will talk to her about involving me in with them. Me and her even look alike. So anyway. Today was the first day I looked at her facebook since the summer and I am creeped out at myself cause I will want to look at it again. I basically think their relationship is cute and yeah I’m jealous and the problem is likely this: That I secretly would like to make my owne relationship more like theirs. She is an animal lover and he is a metal music guy, talented at art and they have friends and go on trips and concerts and dates. Me and my boyfriend both still live with parents, we both have messed up home lofes. Abusive situations but I am not telling police till I move out cause for some reason they must love me in a twisted way cause they are paying for my college. Also: Our relationship is spent in a car. It has become too weird to go to each others house. This couple doesn’t have a life like this at all. We can’t go on trips and stuff cause we are saving for an apartment. My boyfriend finally got a job 2 weeks ago and he is thinking about quitting because I recently learned to make money online and he wants too as well. This terrifies me, we need at least 6000 dollars to move out and I don’t think we can do that in a year. The other couple both work and are about to have a house (a HOUSE. At age 18…) me and my boyfriend have uneventful lives and I’m starting to forget who I want to become and what it is I enjoy. Maybe j am obsessed with the couple because they are giving me ideas to do with my boyfriend and maybe helping me think of what I like in life. Oh and my boyfriend is constantly spending his small tip money and food for us, since we can’t go to each others house and we get hungry. Sometimes my boyfriend will get messages from friends off at university and he’ll say me and him are doing great but he as usual does nothing on Friday nights. We live in Mississippi. There is nothing to do and we do not fit in with hipsters or rednecks. The couple travels around and made friends from other areas yet still somehow apparently have the money for a HOUSE. I could just be single or at least tell my boyfriend we are taking a break till we are at university next year and living together, but my boyfriend would not take me back he is an all or nothing person. And he is perhaps the only decnt looking and intelligent person in the capital of Mississippi so I’m gonna take that and marry it and run with it rather than being alone staying traumatized by my past for the next FIVE years till my agreement to teach at a Mississippi school is up. No thanks. I was recently almost kidnapped at my last job, so right now I am not working and I feel like if my boyfriend does not work I can’t be with him next year we have built up the apartment so much I can’t take it not happening. I don’t wNt to be 21 living in a dorm. I think he needs to make sure he’s making okay money online before quitting his job. I’m obsessed with the couple but grateful my boyfriend said he would be with me if our relationship considers of sitting in a black hole forever. His hobbies are racing cars and expensive things and weird music. I think that a 20 year old man should maintain a part time job and also it will help him save for his expensive tastes. Summary: I’m obsessed with the unique, good looking exciting couple. Me and boyfriend’s relationship consists of being out and about since not allowed at each others house. Advice? Please. Btw, the couple is not in college the girl works at a pet store and the guy in the relationship is in a band that’s actually starting to make money. Maybe theyll one day have their sorrows.. BTW..this is the beginning of the post my screwy phone won't let me type at the beginning. I posted a few pathetic questions Bout the guy before. Me and him went on a few dates over the years. We had sex a few times over 6 months ago and it was insanely amazing but I'm sure it is with his gf (might as well say fiancé) else he wouldn't be with her. Also: Me and my boyfriend since our lives suck we have come up with an imaginary world with charecters in it which we get lost In to escape sometimes. Is this weird? I'm sorry this was so long but when I post a question it's usuLlg a long entry once a year when I'm feeling really lost and low.
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