Scirok Posted October 18, 2011 Posted October 18, 2011 So little update to my story together recap together 3 years left me for a druggy no job no licence (ever) no high school diploma all around great choice from me firefighter emt ya.... Anywas so down to the good part my friend today got in a argument as to why she left me she told him some bull**** excuse and told me threw out the relationship that I had chosen my friends over her too much (guilty to some extent) yet I still hung out with her EVERY SINGLE night (sad) nothing made that b**** happy. So he forwarded me all the texts she sent him I'll leave some here and tell me what u think R u kidding me? I'm sorry but I don't want anything to do with him.. It's been almost 3 months now he needs to get over it.. I'm the happiest I've ever been.. I don't wanna get texts like this or hear anything about him.. Obviously that's not the reason why I broke up with him.. I didnt like him anymore.. I wasn't happy for a while I tried explaining that to him... He just doesn't want to hear the truth. Hahaha no not at all.. Just didn't like him anymore. Not at all.. You can tell John that it's not you or him.. I just realized he wasn't for me and I could do better So kind of a mess ya but from what I've heard from my friends and family she is just trying to make herself look better so she doesn't look like a s*** but the part that hurts a little is she said she could do better which makes me feel I'm below his scummy level idk just a feeling but even tho she said these hurtful things I feel like Ive escaped the sadness for once I feel like I'm free idk why So few questions you think she said these things just to hurt me or make herself look better? And should I feel ****ty about her saying I could do better then him That's the only part that really stung a little is he better? (dumb question but got to ask) Why do I feel so good even tho it was so hurtful?
Author Scirok Posted October 18, 2011 Author Posted October 18, 2011 Also forgot does this break my NC cause I've been since AUG 2nd
wilsonx Posted October 18, 2011 Posted October 18, 2011 what does it matter what she portrays you as to her friends or what she sends to other people? if shes one of those bitches that no matter what you could do she would never be happy then why are you complaining? You got out clean. I mean they never upgrade. You dodged a bullet so did I. Just be glad and reread your post and if you are ever dating a bitch that you can not ever make happy, then kick her to the curb. Its not your job to fix a hoe or to make her happy. She needs to be happy with herself first and people that are bitches arent happy with themselves. They have low self esteem and confidence, thats why shes happy now because she has a new guy to leech off of
Author Scirok Posted October 18, 2011 Author Posted October 18, 2011 Thanks wilsonx, I'm just a little shocked she would speak bad of me after all I did and wasn't a dick or anything just hurtful to know she's not coming back I miss her but I'm better now tho I feel like I can finally move on If this is what really makes her happy so be it I don't know why I see it now and I didn't before. I know it's not my responsibilty to care anymore just sad to see a friend of 4 years to faceplant her life and just she would go from so close to one of my enemy's Anyone else's input ?
geegirl Posted October 18, 2011 Posted October 18, 2011 I think both your egos are bruised. Of course she has to say she chose better. Deep down inside she knows she chose someone who has no path in life. She knows that in her core but can she say it, no. That would mean she is making bad choices. And that would mean she would have to make right choices. But feelings are feelings. You may have found a cure for cancer and she'd still want to be with him because her feelings are with him. It's not an indication as to whether you are better or worse, just that she feels what she feels, for him. Emotionally, he is what she needs. As a person, I am sure she knows you are far more well rounded and successful than what she currently has. But she loves what she loves. As for you, you know who you are and where you stand. No one needs to validate your worth.
Chi townD Posted October 18, 2011 Posted October 18, 2011 Do you really actually believe that you're lower than a guy that does drugs, has no job, can't drive and probably living in his parents basement? If you know where you might have screwed up with her in the past...i.e. not spending enough time with her. Then, learn from that experience and fix it. Apply what you've learned to the next girl that you meet.
Author Scirok Posted October 18, 2011 Author Posted October 18, 2011 Thanks guys that means Alot for once in a Long time I'm smiling it's odd hahaha but I feel free that I don't have that "hope" that she's coming back sure it will be in the back of my mind from time to time but it won't become my obsession like you said she likes what she likes she liked me for who I was and didn't judge the only glimmer of hope I have is that later down the line if we cross paths she realizes she ****ed up or that famous late night call crying it is what it is as for a relationship I've tried online dating got a few girls but it's not the same as meeting someone and falling for them the old way idk just weird in my book It almost seems forced im just gonna let what happens happen and just do me Sure it sucks not having a gf going into winter time im not gonna lie but why be cold and have my gfs heart cold as well life goes on As for your statement on you really don't seem a guy who does drugs better then you do you not in that way but like i question is he's better in the fact of looks personality how he treats her etc not as his personal life just sad cause i know this is going to be one of those short relationships and she and him will end and she will find someone else and I will completely be forgotten idk thanks tho guys you made my day
Author Scirok Posted October 20, 2011 Author Posted October 20, 2011 The only fear I still have is I've heard from her family that she lost a ton of weight and I asked them if they think she's popping perks now too and that's why she's loosing all this weight I know it's not my issue or my concern to even worry but just hurts to know what she's doing to her self and it seems like that drug just follows me I've lost friends to it see some of my friends so addicted to it paying 30$ a pill and I see it on the med calls I go on its sad that drug ruins people's lives and the people around them then when they finally quit they are praised for quiting when it's something they never been doing in the first place I don't want to see her **** her life up
geegirl Posted October 20, 2011 Posted October 20, 2011 I know it's troubling and it hurts to see someone you love self-destruct. You can't help her when she does not want to be helped. I am sure none of her family members can change her, and neither can you. All you can do is take care of yourself and move forward. Most likely she will have to hit rock bottom before she realizes she needs help.
ffw Posted October 20, 2011 Posted October 20, 2011 Deep down inside she knows she chose someone who has no path in life. She knows that in her core but can she say it, no. That would mean she is making bad choices. And that would mean she would have to make right choices. But feelings are feelings. You may have found a cure for cancer and she'd still want to be with him because her feelings are with him. It's not an indication as to whether you are better or worse, just that she feels what she feels, for him. Emotionally, he is what she needs. As a person, I am sure she knows you are far more well rounded and successful than what she currently has. But she loves what she loves Good post Geegirl. Thats one of the things that I still could not figure about girls. How come they choose emotions over logic? Even if they know deep down that in the long run its not working out. I guess its because they think they can fix other people.
wilsonx Posted October 20, 2011 Posted October 20, 2011 (edited) One thing you need to learn from this is if shes doing drugs now, most likely she did them in the past before she met you. You were her knight in shining armor that saved her. She idolized you for your standards and who you are. She was comfortable and safe with you. She did not need the drugs. The thing is people from that type of environment are not use to safe and comfortable. If you read the stories including my own and I can tell you that this is true. Thats why they catch feelings for people that we consider worse then us. Geegirl is spot on in her post and theres nothing you can do about it except tweak your girlfriend picker and stop picking the broken girls. I also want to add, dont turn yourself into a victim because of this experience. Dont put yourself on a pedestal and others below the pedestal. Just get to the point where this doesn't matter any more in your life and focus on your life now. Just be you. Keep a positive outlook and spirit and you will attract others with the same =) Edited October 20, 2011 by wilsonx
Author Scirok Posted October 20, 2011 Author Posted October 20, 2011 Thank again guys for a fact I know she has never done drugs tried them etc we used to talk about it when we were together how stupid people were etc and we had both never even tried anything and I also know cause I grew up with this girl and are relationship came later I had brought her to many party's and I couldnt even get this girl to drink she was against everything her mom a drunk and younger sister that did everything that grew out of the ground or was in the medicine cabinet I just fear he turned her on these drugs cause he did them I mean she alwas listened to me why would she not listen to a guy who she loves and her "savior" from me But like you guys said its not my problem anymore she will learn just hopefully It's not when she getting narcan shot into her sad sad people on this earth just wish she would wake the f*** up
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