ChelseaLS Posted October 15, 2011 Posted October 15, 2011 Just venting.... It's been 7 das since my break started with my boyfriend. I wake up many times during the night and the only way to fall back asleep to read my self help books. I wake up sick to my stomach and feeling like an empty shell. I know I can do it. I am strong. These moments of weakness, I could do without.
k100danny Posted October 15, 2011 Posted October 15, 2011 I still have times like this after two months, i find things hard to let go even though i know she probably wasnt ther person for me and i just liked how she made me feel. It will of course get better and i too wish there was some easy way to do it. you can develop skills to cope but it takes time, hopefully we will be better equipped should things like this happen again. I still cant imagine being with someone else after 2 months and it only being a few month relationship, i can look at girls and think wow your pretty but cant imagine someone else being with me in that way. do whatever you can to put it out of your mind that is all i can say. but we both know its easier said than done.
stargirl259 Posted October 15, 2011 Posted October 15, 2011 Just venting.... It's been 7 das since my break started with my boyfriend. I wake up many times during the night and the only way to fall back asleep to read my self help books. I wake up sick to my stomach and feeling like an empty shell. I know I can do it. I am strong. These moments of weakness, I could do without. I am so sorry to hear about your breakup hun. I am on my 7th day too and wake up through the night after dreaming about him and feel sick but it will get better. You will have up days and down days, some hours I am laughing and others I am in tears. Have you met up with friends and do things you used to enjoy doing? I know its easier said then done because I am struggling with it too. xx
Author ChelseaLS Posted October 15, 2011 Author Posted October 15, 2011 Thanks of the support. Stargirl - yes I have been with friends a ton as my (ex)boyfriend and I live together for the past 5 years. I am trying to get a place of my own but its mid month. So yeah I have been staying at friends houses and my brothers just about every night. It's not the best arrangement because I feel like I have no home anymore. But alas I've got to keep on keeping on. Today I came home (where the boyfriend and I live) and my house is clean. My suitcases I have packed in anticipation of getting a place soon, he has put away... not unpacked but put away. He never ever cleans. Maybe 3 times in our relationship. I am not reading into as my girl mind would like to do. Life and its curve balls.
stargirl259 Posted October 15, 2011 Posted October 15, 2011 It's so awful! I know that feeling... I keep trying not to read too much into things but its so hard isn't it! Today my ex asked for my help to help him market this product at work, the fact he asked me makes me feel lovely but trying hard not to read into it. x
Author ChelseaLS Posted October 15, 2011 Author Posted October 15, 2011 It really is awful. I try to not read into things either. It tends to make me think he would like to try again right now. It's Saturday and usually he is hanging out with his buddies but no he is sticking around the house. I think he is hurting and confused too, but only he can figure it out for himself. I have planned a lot of activities to better myself emotionally and physically for tge next 6 months. That way I won't have to much time to dwel on it. I'm just going to live by the old rule "if you love something let it go. If it comes back it's yours to keep. If it doesn't, it was never meant to be". Oh I forgt to mention... We live together and work at the same I Firm.
abuckeyeleaf Posted October 21, 2011 Posted October 21, 2011 One thing i learned from my breakup is that when they act cold - it's not because they don't care. It's because that's how they cope. My boyfriend told me that, and that when we would talk and he would be hateful, it was to keep from breaking down and giving in. He told me that he also cried the few times i would text him (most of the texts were strictly business.) It probably hurts him too. I don't know the details of your breakup, but clearly he still cares from what I have read. It probably kills him to come home every day and you're not there, and it was probably hard to see your bags sitting there, knowing that one day he'd come home and they, and you, would be gone for good. If you're anything like me, then reading the above probably has your heart breaking and feeling bad that he is sad. But right now you've got to focus on you. He made his bed, let him lie in it (alone) for awhile. Focus on you, make sure you are okay. Thanks of the support. Today I came home (where the boyfriend and I live) and my house is clean. My suitcases I have packed in anticipation of getting a place soon, he has put away... not unpacked but put away. He never ever cleans. Maybe 3 times in our relationship. I am not reading into as my girl mind would like to do. Life and its curve balls.
Recommended Posts